Apr 2
Massive stupid rant/vent below cut, TWs in tags
Being told I'm a hypochondriac my entire life gave me such massive imposter syndrome(?) when it comes to actually acknowledging my own suffering. I don't know who I am most of the time. I don't have any memories of my childhood aside from the stuff I've heard about myself and I've still find myself going Fuuuck I'm such an attention seeker, I'm taking resources away from ACTUALLY mentally ill people, motherfucker WHAT RESOURCES?? WHAT ATTENTION??? Why would I fake a disorder just to put such a massive effort into hiding it from everyone as hard as I can???