“Having autism and hyperfixations is so silly goober I wish I had it :D” No you don’t, you REALLY don’t.
(TW: Mention of School Sh**t!ng, My IRL Trauma, Venting. People in the true crime community that obsess over these killers and romanticize these tragedies PLEASE DNI. LEAVE MY PAGE.)
Dude I do not have control of what I fixate on. I sometimes will fixate on the school sh**t!ng I was a survivor of and I hate it because I want to just forget about it and be rid of it, but it happened at my own high school I was only 15 when it happened.
NO it’s not because I want to do what that monster did, the fact the monster is still ALIVE right now sickens me. It actually makes my blood boil. Sh**t!ngs in general are scary to me, I don’t feel safe when I’m in large places with a huge amount of people anymore not even WORK sometimes. One time when the power suddenly went off, I panicked and got scared even though it turned out to not be intentional and nothing happened.
No, I think it’s to cope with the trauma of it happening. I remember when it ended up making history as one of the deadliest sh**t!ngs in US history, like with Columbine and Sandy Hook, It was and I think still is one of the scariest parts of the tragedy still to this day. Parkland isn’t a scary city, it’s actually pretty, peaceful and welcoming. But an unholy demon HAD to destroy that, along with the 17 families the demon also tore apart.
I don’t know, the frustration of constantly remembering and thinking about that day is something I’ve been wanting to talk about and get off my chest recently and it’s not easy to do that because of how sensitive the subject is. But I did want to bring it up because I also wanted to spread awareness. “it’s been 7 years bro, let go of the past. The perpetrator was already sentenced back in 2022” hate to be a downer, but it’s STILL just as big of a problem in the US as it was back in 2018, hell even BEFORE that! Columbine, Virginia Tech, Sandy Hook. Like this is not funny, MSD was just ONE of them.
After MSD, we’ve had tragedies like Santa Fe Highschool only MONTHS after MSD, Oxford High School in 2021, Uvalde Elementary in 2022, Presbyterian Church, University of Nevada and Michigan State in 2023, and even Apalachee High School, Joppatowne High School and Abundant Life Christian School as recently as LAST YEAR. So no, we’ve barely done anything to change how gun laws work in the US so schools are safer.
I honestly think we’ve even encouraged others to follow in their footsteps. This year, a kid in Indiana that was obsessed with the demon that caused my school’s sh**ting planned to sh**t up their own school on February 14th 2025, dubbing it “Parkland Part 2”. Thankfully, the kid was arrested before that could happen but that was NOT something I or other survivors and victims were hoping to hear that day. That doesn’t change the fact that we have young people right now on the internet, even on TUMBLR, that romanticize and obsess over these monsters and that’s not okay. We need to take better steps like this where we can intervene before it’s too late. We weren’t able to have that happen with MSD unfortunately even after the police were warned, but I am glad this incident this year was thankfully intervened and nothing came of their plans.
If anyone is reading this that is a sh**t!ng victim or a survivor or you know someone that was, I want you to know that you are not alone. It may look tough right now, but we have to keep fighting for our schools and our children’s protection. We may not know how many times we have to say “Never Again” before it actually never happens again but we have to keep praying, taking action and spreading awareness so we can see even a fraction of change become a reality.
I graduated in 2020, but even now I will always be positive, passionate, and proud to be an eagle. It’s been 7 years, yet we are still MSDStrong. 🦅🩶❤️
List some of your favorite tropes! (bonus points if they're rather specific.)
Who is your Comfort Character from your WIP?
What have your learned while writing your WIP? (either about writing or about yourself, whatever)
Do you have any symbolism that you're using in your WIP? Explain it!
Why do you love your WIP? What motivates you to keep writing it?
Which one(s) of your OCs would you get along with in real life? Which do you wish you would get along with? Which would hate your guts?
Are there any characters you feel a little guilty (but only a little) about having put them through so much shit? (aka, who doesn't deserve all the stuff they've gone through.)
What type of scenes are the hardest to write?
Would you rather your WIP be a movie or a tv show? Or something else entirely?
Hopefully these are some good asks! And I hope you're having an amazing weekend! <3
~Morri🗡 (@memento-morri-writes)
MORRI!!!! Happy STS!
Really great questions to be answered below the cut as always:
Have you ever abandoned a WIP? What was it?
Not that I can think of... There's probably some old fanfic from when I was 12 that I never finished buried in my old notebooks somewhere, but I wouldn't know unless I stumbled upon it.
List some of your favorite tropes! (bonus points if they're rather specific.)
OOH! Ok, here's some super specific tropes I love off the top of my head:
When a main character's parent or parental guardian seems harmless and defenseless, but it turns out that they're actually a total badass. Bonus points if it's a middle aged mom who loves her kid a lot and her kid is super protective of her. (See; Barbra Lake from Trollhunters/Tales of Arcadia, Sally Jackson and Paul Blofis from Percy Jackson, and Aunt May in most versions of Spiderman- specifically Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse)
The Power Couple. When it's done right and they're both badasses who both take care of each other and are equals of course.
When two characters are crushing on each other and it's so obvious to the other characters they can't take it. Bonus points if the others try to set them up. Bonus bonus points if they make bets on who's gonna make the first move, how long it's going to take them to come to their senses, etc. BONUS BONUS BONUS points if the two characters shyly reveal that they're together like it's a big thing and the other characters are like "what do you mean you've practically been married this whole time" or "FUCKING FINALLY-"
Team medics that are aggressively compassionate/affectionate and will lecture you when you get injured doing something dumb or by not listening to what they tell you.
The Mom and the Dad of the team. I love it when there's that one character who just takes everyone under their wing and takes care of them. Bonus points if the Mom and Dad are love interests and the other main characters are basically their adopted kids.
Super niche, I've only seen it twice, but: when two sibling characters who have been separated for years and have since become warriors meet for the first time again and they meet by beating the shit out of each other. Bonus points if the older sibling is trying to go easy on their younger sibling so it's fair. Bonus bonus points if the younger sibling then proceeds to kick their older sibling's ass. (See; Natasha Romanoff and Yelena Belova in Black Widow, Shang Chi and Xialing in Shang Chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings)
The nightmare trope >:). When a character is having a nightmare and they wake up comforted by a loved one. Bonus points if there's crying and screaming and the comforter is in tears too. Bonus bonus points if the character's nightmare was about the person they love dying.
A team of characters doing mundane and domestic stuff inbetween the fighting and world saving stuff. Like those 2012 Avengers tower fanfics, those are exactly the kind of vibes i love to see in any story, but specifically the superhero genre. (see also: Incredibles, specifically when Bob is trying to take care of the kids in Incredibles 2)
When a character is mind controlled, and hurts the other main characters. Bonus points if the mind controlled character used to be a villain or some kind of monster like an assassin. Bonus bonus points if they feel like they can't trust themselves around their loved ones ever again, and the people who love them comfort them and help the character feel like they can trust themselves around people they love again.
That really specific thing when a group of characters are hanging out and eating together, then something happens and they all have to get up quickly to leave and that one character is stuffing their face with food as fast as they can before following the others
When a character is severely injured, and in order to clean the wound and patch it up before the character bleeds out the others have to hold them down. Bonus points if there's lots of screaming and the others feel SO guilty afterwards >:3
SASSY VILLAINS. I don't care if they're villains with standards or absolutely fucked up and in no way good. Are they funny? Will they make me laugh my ass off with stuff like "WHO GAVE YOU PERMISSION TO HIT ME!" and "Did you really have to come crashing through my lair, I just got it renovated-" and stuff like that? ALSO. They must have impeccable fashion sense, they have to have a better, way cooler costume than the heroes otherwise it's not fun
Breaking the fourth wall and poking fun at the story and fiction in general as you're telling it is always fun
Who is your Comfort Character from your WIP?
For FSF: Definetly Raven, Sapphire, and Triveya, my autistic and adhd babies.
For The City is Ours: Nickelle, because she's aroace like me. Kylee, because she's autistic like me. And Chase because he's the sarcastic computer gremlin that's consonantly loosing his mind listening to the others get into ridiculous shit on the other end of the comms.
What have your learned while writing your WIP? (either about writing or about yourself, whatever)
There's a lot of stuff I didn't realize I already knew or needed to realize about me and stuff in my life. There's stuff in both FSF and TCIO that was/is really cathartic, and helps me to process my trauma and helped me learn how to unpack it and deal with the toxic people in my life. And I learned that I really need therapy.
Trigger warning for Snow's abusive stepmom, and a little bit on my fucked up life and trauma, plus toxic religion implications and religious trauma mentions
A specific example I can think of is Snow's arc in Snow Knight. Her arc is all about realizing that she has to stop giving her stepmom second chances and excuses, and that her good naturedness is being used against her.
I kind of projected all of my feelings about my relationship with the toxic church (dare I say cult, because it has all the criteria for one) I grew up in and my family onto Snow and her stepmom. Growing up, I thought that those things were good and that they wouldn't hurt me. It's taken a really long time to get out of the brainwashing and realize uh, that's not fucking normal and is actually really fucked up to teach a child wtf-
There's this really climatic scene I'm planning where Snow realizes that her stepmom will never stop hurting her, and I ended up writing this whole screaming and crying rant Snow gives to her stepmom- that's basically a general summary of everything I want to say to the people who raised me and the leaders of the church i grew up in, without specific religion stuff. I didn't realize that was what it was until I reread it later and went "oh... i need therapy... and the conversation I have with my family and the church leaders when I move out is certainly gonna be real interesting...."
Do you have any symbolism that you're using in your WIP? Explain it!
!!! :DDD Ok, I'll try to explain this as best I can.
A lot of the symbolism, at least that I can think of, is less of the object stuff and more of the what characters say and their actions. There might be some object stuff, but not for now. Most of what tells the story symbolism wise is the characters' choices and relationships.
For instance, in Handsome in the Beast, Elliot and Hestia's romance is kind of a symbolic example of the themes in the whole series, and how you shouldn't isolate yourself and find people you can trust and who truly love you. And how even if it hurts at first because you're not used to it, you should hang on and let this good thing in your life help you heal instead of pushing it away out of fear.
Why do you love your WIP? What motivates you to keep writing it?
For FSF: I love the characters and their relationships so much. I also love the chaos, and the wild found family shenanagins. Stuff that mainly motivates me to keep writing it: bringing good representation to people who want and need it like me, teaching the readers that living can be worth it, and it's just a really cool story i want to see on library and book store shelves one day.
For TCIO: I love these chaotic teenagers and all the hilarious shit they get into. Plus all the mundane domestic stuff like trying to grocery shop for the whole team and fighting over who gets to use the shower first. Stuff that motivates me to write it: bringing representation to readers who want to see themselves in characters that's actually good, teaching the readers about what real forgiveness looks like and how you should be with your loved ones and show them you love them, and again, it's a really cool story I want to see on library and book store shelves one day.
Which one(s) of your OCs would you get along with in real life? Which do you wish you would get along with? Which would hate your guts?
All of my ADHD and autistic characters would be buddies with me, we understand each other. Me and Snow would get along well too (see me projecting my familial and religious trauma onto her).
The character I would get along with the least would be Jason. He's the kind of asshole that would call me all of the slurs in less than five minutes, and expect me to kiss him after because he's rich and objectively hot. Absolutely not, I don't even want to get along with him, he's getting punched. He'd hate my guts after that.
All of my OCs would probably hate me if they found out I'm the one who put them through all that shit, lol.
Are there any characters you feel a little guilty (but only a little) about having put them through so much shit? (aka, who doesn't deserve all the stuff they've gone through.)
Raven.... and Sapphire.... I mean all of them, really, I put a lot of them through hell and back, but those two the most. i mean between the Sapphire dying before they confess to each other/have their first kiss and then going through literal hell to get back to each other, only to go through more pain.... whew, that's a lot. I'd feel bad if all the angst wasn't so fun 🤪
What type of scenes are the hardest to write?
So far, fight scenes. It's not the getting the words out that's hard, it's editing it down to be readable at the very least. I describe stuff to much and it ends up slowing the pacing of the scene down till it's unbearable. But I'm working on it.
Would you rather your WIP be a movie or a tv show? Or something else entirely?
If any of my WIPs get onscreen adaptations, which is a dream come true in itself, I want them to be TV shows- because with movies, there's a time limit and you have to cut out stuff so that it fits into the attention span of the veiwers. With TV shows however, there's more room to go in depth and make sure nothing important gets left out or glossed over.
Plus we all know the track record of book-to-movie adaptations- 99% of the time they are either close enough but not great, or they're an abomination that really really sucks. I haven't seen many book-to-tvshow adaptations, but from what I've seen they're lightyears better than any movie adaptations. And I'd have to have a lot of involvement in the creative process so nothing gets ruined or cut out of course.
Thanks for all of the questions @memento-morri-writes !
Wow. Some of you guys on Tumblr are actually messed up. I only wanted to post an awareness video against a horrific issue currently going on in the US, Florida especially. Something that’s negatively affected me for 7 years now and I get people reposting with graphic and triggering content to be “funny” and edgy. I’m not going to drop the specific group here because I’m scared they will find this post too but genuinely fuck you. You guys need serious help.
