@twistedfortune , continued from ⚜
Just such a boldly thoughtless impulse had sparked his life and what followed had pruned it into its current shape. And just as regret had come instantly then, he froze the moment after. This time he knew to pray that the results wouldn’t hit home with such force. He could be forgiven for drawing these parallels in his mind; even the impetus was similar. Though time would tell whether the magnitude of mistake was also comparable at least it hadn’t been selfish in nature. The bread had been for his sister’s children; the kiss to her fingers was to comfort her.
She had just finished detailing some hardship— perhaps the story of the scars those hands wore. He couldn’t help noticing and in the end couldn’t help asking. He saw at once why she’d paused. It was.a terrible thing what had been done to her. Such nightmares were only slightly easier to share than to let go of; he still hadn’t mastered the latter.
His cheeks flushed under their tanned surface; his eyes sought refuge in his lap along with his hands in retreat. “Forgive me. It seemed only natural… but I should not have.” Not without asking; not at all.
“No, it….” It was reflex, to insist he need not apologize. Ruby pulled her hand back for a moment, eyes on the small scars, flexing her fingers and seeing how the light played across her skin before she willed herself to smile and reach back out for him. “It was many years ago. I’ve known almost nothing but comfort since.”
She’d been on the streets for a time, when she’d been a child. She could tell him that much. She had scrounged and fought for scraps, grateful for the days she found a discarded newspaper to protect her from the cold. Even then she left out plenty -- the desperation, the gaps in her memory, the things she did to survive -- or the scars that had come from before. From farm tools or scuffles with other children. Just enough for him to dispell the rumors around her. Ruby was not a disgraced noblewoman like many people thought, nor an actress trained for the stage but a simple Parisian girl, with fortune enough to have been brought in by a wealthy man
It was not an easy story to tell, but she was glad he’d asked about those, rather than the one on her face, or her neck. The scars on her hands were small, easily missed, and the skin soft, her childhood on the farm erased. It was for the best. “God has been kind to me. I am grateful for him —“ A lie. “And for you.” Truth. She still couldn’t tell if it was bitter or sweet to know. “I beg you not to worry for me. Promise you will try.”