#two things even

[adxmanial]

haven't posted my art here in like twenty slutty slutty years

[dreemmachine]

i tendered my resignation from zine fest today. it makes me sad. i’m hoping taking something off my plate, even though it’s important to me, will aid me in not dying an early, stress-related death. going to the meeting tomorrow to turn over a bunch of ozf stuff i’ve been storing and give out hugs. i hope to help in a way more limited capacity, and i’m looking forward to tabling this year. 

in therapy on thursday, i told my therapist that i’m not getting anything out of our visits (and haven’t been for a while). it took me til the end of the session to muster the courage to just come out with it, but i’m glad i did. i expressed my frustration that i still have these BIG phobias i’m not making any progress on, and that he was more helpful when i was in a crisis where i needed comfort than he is dealing with my regular type of crazy (which is overloading my plate with projects and then burning out/melting down once a month). i’m hoping he can refer me to someone who will be more helpful. i scheduled an appointment for 2 weeks from now to figure out next steps.

those are the two things that i haven’t been able to shit or get off the pot about for the past month or more. glad i finally took some action, even though it was scary. i’m hopeful that i initiated some much needed changes.