js a lil vent abt my status as like.. dating? idk.. tw btw
so i met this girl and like.. idk if we're dating.. she calls me cute stuff and called me babe and even kissed my cheek.. but like, idk if im ready for a relationship yet. she never confirmed it or denied it.. but i met her a week ago. A WEEK. i honestly dont fucking know if im ready or if we're actually dating but now that shes said stuff, im like.. realizing im more aroace then i thought....
eh the brain worms can think about it
nvm they might tell me to kill myself or self harm
but like im too afraid to ask her.
im afraid to ghost her, im afraid to hurt her, im afraid im going to mess up, i just got out of a relationship 5 months ago and i thought i was ready, im afraid it well end up like my exes, im afraid my hypersexuality might surface again, im afraid of my mom and dad (homophobic parents core).
im afraid.
