"Ganyan lang ba talaga ang kaya mo? Bakit ganyan ka? Bakit hindi mo 'to kaya? Wala ka namang nagagawang mabuti. Puro ka lang naman hingi. Buti pa si ganito, eh ganito. Eh ikaw?"
We hear this mostly from our friends, classmates, relatives, family, sibling/s, or even.. our parents.
It hurts to know that everything we do are irrelevant to some specially when we exert all of our effort at it. Yung tipong binigay mo na lahat lahat tapos di man lang maa-appreciate? grabe yun. Kaya minsan nakakawalang gana. However, at some point, napapansin ka naman. Yun nga lang, because of 1 mistake out of 100 good things you made. Perfect.
Even you see how my mom supports and cares for me, I, too, at some point, felt like i am not good enough. Like i can only do these things. That i am limited to such. We all do. We're young. We explore. We rise, we fall. I am the eldest in the family. I have one cute younger brother named Jansen. At minsan, nakaka-pressure din maging ate. Knowing that after you graduate, your mom is counting on you. Ako magpapa-college sa kapatid ko. And i want him to have the best college experience he will ever get.
Being a student in Information Technology, minsan feeling ko, i can't be at my best in this course. I am not that logical to do programming. Maybe in designing. But still, i struggle. That's my story.
All of us experienced being rejected? Am i right? :)
And when i say "all of us" i mean.. everyone.
I am talking to you. You, who are reading this. And i'm gonna ask you these questions: Where do you put your value into? Saan naka-depende ang worth mo? Who/What defines you? :)
I'm gonna give you a minute to ask yourself. Then proceed.
Think of your answer. Dear, your answer, whoever or whatever it is.. at some point 'di ba, it rejected you? :)
Let me share my story. Before, my worth depends on my new bag every semester, the cellphone i have, the university i study, the material things that is in, the trending song that has to be in my playlist, and a boyfriend. Yeah. I know. :))
Most of the young men and women today put themselves into someone or something that they think they will be accepted and loved.
Kaya nga maraming nagpapakamatay para magkaroon ng ganitong gadget. Yung tipong makikipag-away or magtatampo pa sa parents pag hindi nabilhan ng ganito, ganyan. (ouch)
Yung kailangang in na in ka kaya you spend a lot of time sa internet kasi you don't find yourself talking to your family at home.
Hindi na din kataka-taka yung at the early age, nakakapag-boyfriend/girlfriend na. Like ako before. HAHA.
They find themselves daw. Only to know that they find themselves desperately to be loved.
Naiintindihan ko naman. Dun lang nila nahahanap yung love at care na hindi naibibigay ng pamilya. Ng magulang. Sa bahay kasi panay sigaw, utos, rejections, failures, pressure.
Eh dito sa friends ko, happy time. Living young, wild and free lang. Sa boyfriend/girlfriend ko naman, sobra akong naa-appreciate at sobrang concern.
Hmm.. ang tanong lang nga diyan.. HOW LONG? Hanggang kailan?
Ugh Yen. Oo na. Wala na akong kwenta. Palagi naman akong mali.
Dear, we are perfectly imperfect. :)
You know, you don't deserve to feel like that. Alam mo, ang dami pang bagay sa buhay na dapat tinitingnan kesa sa mga bagay na mayroon ka ngayon. Hindi ka perfect pero mahalaga ka.
Weh? Paano mo namang nasabing mahalaga ako?
Kagaya ko dati. Ganyan din ang tanong ko.
Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you, I give men in return for you, peoples in exchange for your life. Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your offspring from the east, and from the west I will gather you.
Siguro, kilala mo na kung sino ang tinutukoy ko na sobra ang pagmamahal sa 'yo. :)
Eh Yen, sa sobra namang dami kong ginawang kamalian sa buhay ko. Hindi ko naman deserve yung love ni God. Sobrang bait Niya. Eh ako?
But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in WEAKNESS." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
- 2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV)
We can never be as perfect as Him. But, He says that even in our weakness, we can still stand up. Because in our weakness, He stood up.
Kaya kahit ganito lang tayo. He didn't want us to be pressured for us to be perfect. I mean, don't live a life of "How good is good enough". Don't strive for perfection. You don't need to be. Don't pattern you life in this world. A world of rejection. He just want You as who you are now. All you need to do is to come to Him.
Just open you heart, dear. God is just waiting for you to talk to Him. I pray that you see yourself as a child of God. Even this world tells you that you are NOTHING. God says, to Him, YOU ARE EVERYTHING. And to Him, You are more than enough.
