Feb 11, 2025
“look at the camera” / “fuck off” (x)
“look at the camera” / “fuck off” (x)
lot of feelings about being disabled and bedridden and housebound etc, and the disappointment and sadness, etc that comes with it. especially, bc a girl asked me out for coffee and i don’t know how to let her down and say, ‘yeah, don’t hold your breath’
Y'all sometimes I just wanna write a big Regency or Victorian era romance with lots of pining and fear of rejection but eagerness to get to know each other and then something happens and tears them apart but they can't stay away and they just keep getting drawn back together and I really wish that Sanditon had a SEASON 2!
FUCK!
when fleabag said “i love you” and hot priest said “it’ll pass”
What’s it like to have a solvable medical issue? I don’t even fucking know anymore. I’m finally being treated for what might be an ulcer, and the antibiotics are making me feel even more nauseous and horrible than I did before. I can’t help thinking that whatever this problem is, is just another thing I’ll have to “learn to live with” for the rest of my life.
Also, fun fact “learn to live with it” is what doctors say when they give up on you. I know from years of experience. I’m so frustrated and angry, and there’s nothing I can do other than what I usually do, which is spend all my energy trying to prove that I’m worthy of treatment.
Got a lil baggie with a bracelet and candy from personnel today and welp let's just say it was for women's day and I was happy to get candy but reminded of things like no I'm not a woman stop that
i feel like no matter now much i eat, my body won’t lose weight. my body is holding onto every calorie i eat and it’s so frustrating!