Is it bad that I don’t care about the fact that I’m probably gonna fail this semester and highly likely get kicked out of my school because I’m failing my major and if you have below a D in that class you get kicked out of school but I can’t bring myself to care anymore and I just wanna cry but at the same time crying is so much work and it gets all messy and when the tears dry out you face feels all mushy meh and I already hate myself don’t need an ugly ass mushy face to help out and I have no motivation for anything at all and my "best friend" texted me last night and we haven’t talked in months and I may have snapped at her and now she’s prolly mad at me and I just wanna cry but I don’t wanna have to deal with the consequences of crying and I wanna lay down but my moms gonna be home from work any time and I don’t want her to think I’m even more lazy and be even more disappointed then she already is and I’d love to take some time to take care of myself but I’m drowning and suffocating on school work and having to take care of a child that’s not even mine but I don’t even let myself believe I deserve more and at least some time to collect myself because I know I’m being a drama Queen and I know that no matter what someone out there is going through something worse and dealing with it better so I just gotta stop complaining and do my shit but there’s so much to do I don’t even know where to start and I wanna cry so badly but mushy face ! Is that bad? It doesn’t sound as bad as my head does when there’s nothing to distract me from it