#unalive mention

[boldlyvoid]

anyway my fibromyalgia is the worst it's been in months, i'm burnt out, i am tired of being alive and having to put in effort to continue, so i'm just going to log off for the night. i'll talk to you all later

[a-system-of-broken-parts]

Feeling frustrated & overwhelmed with our psych.

She thinks the only way to move forward is to get cooperation from one of our persecutors who she thinks is actually a child in a costume. Which I think is ridiculous.

She doesn’t want to cooperate. I don’t want to work work with her. No one in the system wants anything to do with her. Her role is literally to be a fucking cow.

It seems we keep getting to these places where our psych is like ‘this is the only way to get better& if you don’t do it, you won’t be better & it’s all your own fault’. That’s probably slightly harsher than she would say it, but it’s definitely how we take it.

It leaves us feeling suicidal. Which isn’t helped with the violence situation at home right now, the triggering of parts from the EMDR we were doing prior to this road block & the fact that we are hurdling towards a milestone birthday that just highlights how fucked up our life is, how little we’ve achieved & how much we deserve to die because we’re a completely waste of space & resources on this earth.

[nerdy-as-heck]

Tw// unalive mention

I don't remember when this ask was sent, probably months ago, and never learned who it was. But if you're still around please know that, even though I never answered it, I read this ask often. And I left it in my inbox so I could continue to see it. It means a lot, I've had few messages that motivate me to live as much as this one in the 5+ years I've struggled with finding that desire.

Thank you <3

[iburprofan]

They didn’t open the spirit halloween store in the town over I’m going to unalive myself.