#uncertainfeelings

[holycowatalkingdistraction]

These nights.

These nights, 

I crawl into bed, 

I dig into the covers and I bury myself in them, with  the cruellest intentions. 

I find a nice, comfortable position within the loam and the minerals and I think. 

I ruminate

I contemplate and re evaluate everything that has happened until I have rationalized every good and bad thing to a point where they start to resemble dots on a map. And I can't

And I won't connect them. 

So I sit here, buried in my sheets, unable to move. Waiting for sleep to arrive so that I may have another day, 

another chance. 

And then my phone lights up. 

And it's you. 

And you make me smile.

M.A.H.