Hello! Just a question as I re-read your Underneath verse for the millionth time: in Way Down We Go, the fic where Jared gets shot, Alona & Jeff discuss pulling Jensen out because he was too involved & in the game. We know that Jensen couldn’t ever leave Jared because Jared would do anything and everything in his power to either get Jensen back or at least keep tabs on him, and we also know carrying out a sloppy operation to get Jared in for a few years as opposed to an iron solid case is also not an option because then he’d connect 2 & 2 and hunt Jensen to death no matter how far he runs.
So, when they talk about pulling him, how would that even happen? Would they make it so Jensen literally disappears from existence (to Jared’s knowledge) and has the guy wondering exactly what the fuck happened to Jensen and possibly have him investigating into everything in the hopes of finding him, or would they make it seem like he died?
Of course seeing it play out would be cool, but I think even just knowing how that would look like is interesting as hell in itself.
I apologize if you’ve discussed if before, but I was just reminded of that as I literally re-read this fic haha.
Love love love your writing & this series. Your characterizations and how you portray character development is so good. Especially in the last chapter of Pressure Point where it’s so fricken clear just how isolated and detached Jensen feels from his family. You can see how attached Jensen has grown to Jared’s crew and sees them as his family over his own — how he compares Sam’s lasagna to his mom’s like how you think of your ex when you see something that they used to like, how he’s forgotten details of his own family but remembered the little things of Jared’s, how he took the cat magnet from his mom’s fridge for Willy. It’s the unconscious thoughts and actions that kinda cement his feelings and opinions of how he feels towards both families whether he consciously thinks of it or not. Through his eyes, even we feel the detachment to his blood family.
It really slapped me in the face when I re-read it, though maybe it had slipped past me and I hadn’t actually read it until then.
In any case, great stuff! Love your world building. Thank you so much for sharing your world, your characters, your writing with us.
Omg thank you so so much for your lovely message! Despite falling into new fandoms, this fic will always be my baby so whatever love it gets is just always extra special and feeds my little writer heart 💙
And ack I'm so happy you noticed the fridge magnet! And the lasagna! I didn't want Jensen to actively think too much about how detached he's becoming from his family because I don't think it's something he wants to examine in detail even though he knows it's happening (he needs to still be close to his family because he needs to go back to them because he needs to do his job) so I've tried to put in these little things showing how he's emotionally becoming distanced as he finds and lets himself have this new family.
As for the pulling Jensen out, I think early on the plan was for Jensen to just leave Jared and then have Campbell disappear to Europe. I don't think anyone had a concrete timeline in the beginning because they had no idea how long it would take and by the end they're just riffing it honestly. I think at this point in the story, both Jensen and Jeff have seperately developed and understanding of how it will have to go, but I don't want to go into it too much because it will come up in a way in The End. Which I am working on 😅 (the draft is at 80k and I'm hoping to make some progress in the coming months when my underneath beta is coming to visit me). So I know I'm asking for a lot of patience here, but I do want to wrap up or at least address most of the loose threads of the story in The End. And I don't want to give out spoilers really, because it feels too much like jinxing it 😅 but there is a plan! Jensen has one. I have one. Finishing is just hard because I want to get it right, you know?
Thank you so much for still sticking with this story, it truly means so much to me ❤️
