#unfullfilled

[ego-zitate]

[nicoleprins]

I’m having so many mixed emotions this week. I’ve love being my job because I felt needed, that I was making an impact, I was contributing, I was seeing student and staff development and successes. It was fulfilling. Now I feeling I have nothing to contribute. I’m fearful. I worried about people judging me because I want to take care of my health first. It’s all innertermoil which is slowly churning the anxiety and trauma of my PTSD. Im feeling not good enough and I’m not sure what I can do to not feel this way. I guess if I lived closer to the community I work in I would be more available. If I didn’t have horrible asthma this year I wouldn’t be scared to be in public and volunteer my services more. If I didn’t have someone living at my home that is considered a “higher risk” and I only had to worry about my health, I would be less fearful.

[imagineannemorgan]

Unfulfilled

The back of Jeff Bezos head looks like an ass in South Park. Did Trey design it this way on purpose?

[nowandnevemore]

*Scrolling through my 900 likes specifically looking for something*

“I know it’s here somewhere”

*scrolled through 200*

“There’s no way I unliked it”

*Got to the part in my likes where I first started liking from this particular fandom*

“Shit, I actually got rid of it, dammit.”

*5 minutes later, go back through and double check*

“What the hell was I thinking?!?!”

*About an hour later, scrolling through likes trying to purposely unlike things*

*Scroll through about 20 things, see the thing I was looking for before...*

“Fuck! That’s what I get for doing this a 1am”

[aegaracing-blog]

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[tellmeimyour-nationalanthem]

What am I even doing ?

[vicsrestlessmind]

Unfulfilled.

Does anyone else feel like a passenger in their own life, feeling like you’ve settled for the life you live and have simply been going through the motions just because? I recently have found myself feeling this way. My main goal in life is to come home everyday, lay my head on my pillow and feel content about my ongoings of the day. Recently, I have been feeling incomplete, like something is off but I can’t quite pinpoint it. I can feel in deep down in the very essence of my being that I am not on the path that would lead me to my greatest happiness. The scariest thing is confronting that truth and determining what to do about it. I feel so discouraged and bogged down by my current circumstances, but I know I should be utilizing my time trying to find a solution. I just don’t know where to start. I only hope that I start to feel the joy I once did after a day of work; the satisfaction and contentment knowing I have made a difference, even if minuscule, in the life of my patients. I hope I can find my spark again as right now I am reaching aimlessly into the dark.