#unrepression fic

[hattalove]

sorry, you just mention tmad in the tags of a post and i think it’s about tell me about despair and I need to tell you I just finished rereading it, and it is incredibly and had me losing my mind at work, I just need you to know that even if it’s an ancient text now it still changed my brain chemistry and continues to change my brain chemistry

And if you weren’t talking about tell me about despair, I hope you appreciate the encouragement anyway

- talie🩵

omg hi i was and this is so sweet of you thank you?? 🥹

[hattalove]

I just finished “tell me about despair” and I need you to know that it is still hitting deep in people’s hearts everywhere. And then I come to your blog and see I was in the presence of a fellow elder larrie? Should have known I was in the safe hands of a fellow comrade 💚💙

crying fdshjk i love this message!!!!!! i'm so glad you enjoyed it, thank you 💙💚

[hattalove]

when you shared the unrepression fic again I had to re-read it and I've just finished chapter 1 and god it's just as devastating second time round I'm literally having to manually breathe my way through each line it's just. so. good.

fshkja pls i love this message and also you ur so nice thank you!!!!!!!!

[hattalove]

hello! i've just finished my annual reread of tell me about despair and just wanted to thank you again for writing one of the most impressive works i have ever read, every single aspect is perfection and i am so grateful that i can return to it every year and get the same level of joy from it every single time! may your 2024 bring you lots of happiness and love 💖

oh this is so so so sweet, i'm so glad it's something you find yourself coming back to, that's the highest compliment 💕 thank you so much for this and same to you, i hope this year treats you wonderfully!!

[hattalove]

I was scrolling through the tumblr webs yesterday afternoon (Pacific Time) and ran across a post that listed must-read fics in the 9-1-1 fandom. Your fic “tell me about despair” was on it and needing something to read, I clicked on it. I just want to say that this is probably now one of my favorite 9-1-1 fics ever. It was so well written, both in characterization and heart. I am still just kind of numb and living in this universe you created, but I just needed you to know that I am so grateful that you are a writer in this fandom and thank you thank you thank you.

hi friend thank you!!!! this is incredibly kind and i'm so glad you enjoyed my behemot of a fic haha ❤️

[hattalove]

just finished tmad 😭😭😭😭 i didn’t want it to end! thank you for sharing your gift 💕

omg hi PLEASE this is so sweet thank you so much for reading 🥺💖

[hattalove]

hey hey, i've just finished my new annual tradition of reading tell me about despair between christmas and new year and honestly the amount of effort and love you poured into it astounds me every single time - as i said last year words can't actually express how much i loved it but i'm going to try this time, even though they will be woefully inadequate!!!

• every character pairing be it frank, hen, bobby, maddie, chris, karen, i could go on and on, they just all work so so well and it blows me away because they are all so perfectly them 💖

• the level of description across the whole fic with the bird feeder, the tissues, the way buck holds eddie, the kittens, again i could go on but genuinely you're incredible 🥰🥰

• the gentleness you treat eddie, and all the characters, with makes me so emotional because they all deserve it and this fic is the greatest tribute to them 💙

• the moments of levity always always make me laugh, particularly the bit about being sued for workplace harrassment for wanting to kiss bobby on the mouth and the don't like that in therapy, but then i have such a visceral reaction, the whole way through tbh, but mainly to the sections with eddie's parents that i can feel the emotions in my throat and that's how you know it's an incredible fic

• i am so so emotional this time around about a single flower on a cactus it's absolutely fine

• their hearts have always been in the same place, held safe by the same pair of hands 😭🥰😍😭🥰🥺😭

this still is and always will be a fic that takes my breath away and your writing talent is a such a gift to us all 💖💖 i know i'm a day early but hope your new year celebrations are full of love and laughter, and wishing you a happy and healthy 2023 😘😘

omg hi i adore this message so much 🥺 i'm so so happy it holds up on a reread and is something you want to come back to, that means so much to me!!!! happy 2023 to you as well, i hope it's everything you want it to be 💞

[hattalove]

ok hi so i’m sick and rereading tell me about despair bc it’s the comfort fic and can i just? i don’t think i’ve ever yelled at you about this part:

“Cap,” Eddie says, and intertwines his hand with the one Buck still has on his chest, steady, always steady.

“Yes, Eddie,” Bobby says.

“I, uh. I made something,” Eddie says, the words clumsy in his mouth. He feels a lot like a kid. “You know, with the knitting, and all.”

“I helped,” Buck, who has absolutely no idea about Bobby’s weird ongoing metaphor, chimes in, and Eddie wants to pull him down and kiss him within an inch of his life.

What he does instead is grin, and tip his chin most of the way up until Buck catches his eye.

“You did,” he says, too intimate for where they are.

like how fucking dare????? i cry every time i read this section because i’m just??? so happy for them 😭😭😭 and this is just such a pure and beautiful moment i can’t 😭😭😭

that was it thank you for this fic it’s the gift that keeps on giving and i hope you have a good day byeeee 💖💖💖

omg PLEASE thank you so much for sending this. i forgot the knitting metaphor existed and this was such a nice throwback, and i'm so happy tmad still has something to give you 💓