#until then:

[we-love-lando-norris-over-here]

Well, my immediate thought was that the upgrades are for Lando because he's been complaining about that front suspension for multiple races now. Until I saw "which results in an aerodynamic performance gain" and realised there's no way they'd give that to Lando. What if he beats PRstri with it?

[melody-of-scream]

Quick explanation for my inactivity + update concerning my father.

A lot has been going on. A lot of driving to the hospital, staying there etc. + I’m in the last phase of finally choosing my thesis topic. The worry about my father and the time it takes to visit him only add to this. 

He’s been at the ICU for four days now and the short version of what he has is carbon dioxide poisoning. 

Apparently he suffers from a kind of condition where breathing in works just fine - he gets all the oxygen he needs... but when breathing out the carbon dioxide doesn’t leave but stays... he had more than double the amount of carbon dioxide in his blood than what would be normal... if it wasn’t accumulated slowly over a long time... he’d would have been unconcious long ago.

Either way, they are ridding his body from it bit by bit now as well of getting rid of the water retention in his body... that somehow probably has to do with it... but they still aren’t too sure.

He’ll probably has to stay in the hospital for another 2-3 weeks. But he should be fine aka he already seems a lot better, says he’s a lot better... and definitely less blue in the face 😊

[thunkonthehead]

i used to have a lot more control over my life than i do now, but honestly i'm starting to think that's ok. structure was lonely. i may've had a consistent sleep schedule, routines i kept up with, and generally maintained the image of someone that has their shit together far better than i do now, but it wasn't worth coming home to an empty apartment for as long as i did.

the adjustment period to living with 3 other people again (a little bit 4 right now lol) has absolutely been rough - but my friends have put up all their decorations and i look around this house with the sinking realization that it never felt like a home. i never knew how to make it feel like one - strangely, i'm only just now learning how to take up space now that it's not just mine.

and when i see my jewel and my cherry sitting outside sharing a bowl at 10pm, i want nothing more than to join them. i'll wake up late and a little horribly the next day but i never regret it. there was a time in my life i thought i'd never touch weed lol

mush and i sit at the top of the stairs talking about emotional struggles and learning to handle all of the new change in our lives, and i have to take a second to just pause and remind myself this isn't a house guest. i'm sharing my life with him for the foreseeable future and that thought clears the dreariness after a breakdown. the next day we do our first dispo run since they moved in and it takes me a minute to identify the sinking feeling i have on the way back - that subconsciously i'm sad we're headed back because that always meant saying goodbye for the day after. i have to remind myself there's no saying goodbye here, we're all going home and staying home.

i spent a good amount of time chasing the prospect of living with a person who, ultimately, never had my best interests at heart. i never thought i'd feel love like that again - let alone love that'd follow through for me. i didn't feel worthy of it, sometimes i still don't. but i see a house full of people who not only love me but put in the work to show it, and i have to think "god, it never had to be that hard, did it?"

[daenrys]

❤️

[mwagneto]

Well it only took me 11 hours of sitting in front of a computer, deleting all my personal files, hours of waiting half asleep, 25 dollars, 6 days of waiting for a pendrive, and a lot of cleaning viruses and browser history, but

I FINALLY put Skyrim on my mom's computer

[poeticthief-blog]

out of rhymes.

i feel awful about saying this, but i am so low on inspiration & muse. and motivation maybe. i want to do all my replies and starters so badly but my brain is jammed and saying no. i don’t want to take another huge break from this blog tho, so ! idk. we will see what happens. maybe it’s just an off day / week ? if not i might stay in the mt rp community, but with a different character just until i’ve got my drive back here...

[acebarduil]

Hey! Passing by to say that I read Those Colors We Share today and oh my god! I've read many amazing barduil fics but yours is just outstanding! It's so sweet and full of fluff, I can't avoid squealing while reading it. I am very bad at words, I just want to say that I love it and you're amazing, okay? Thanks, bye, ily

Oh my thank you! ;w; I saw this when I woke up and my day is already made! Thank you so much for letting me know and reading my story, it means the world to me <3 *flails around*