he realizes a little too late how the mask makes him look, how he suddenly hesitates when he's passed by by a few of the targets. this bow - it didn't look at ghost twice.
it coils in his gut and boils in his veins.
he doesn't know what happens next. the world goes by in a blur. it's all red. red tinted. red hot. there and gone. he's only coming back to with his knife gripped in hand, and blood dripping from it. from his body. viscera on the ground. a corpse, laying there - the fate of one who would disregard the threat he poses. his hand moves up, shaking, to wipe the gore from the mask, though smearing it over it.
he's still shaking. it takes moments before the mask is fully torn from his face and the human beneath gasps for air - as if surfacing from drowning. but he finds none of it. nothing to aleviate the way he feels so choked up and caged. like an animal.
he did just act like one, didn't he? he might as well be one. no different. operating on rage. instinct. he can't tell - is he dead or alive? it hits like a wave, and he teeters on his feet, before nearly collapsing, reaching out for the nearest point of security -
to find said nearest point is another body. another living body. not a threat. yet still - it's almost worse than falling onto an enemy. to be baren, without the mask, so tired and weak from the fighting, from his own overbearing ghost. he might just rather they slit his throat and leave him there for dead. you deserve that, don't you simon?
he opens his mouth to say something - anything - but the only thing that comes out is a half assed grunt. useless pathetic thing, isn't he?