Keeping my earth shattering imposter syndrome at bay, let's talk about my biggest project ever. Which I probably will never complete. But I love to talk about it.
So like I have this story in my head which I call the fantasy book in my head. Its a asoiaf meets bengal kinda thing. I like to call it grimdark, my friend who I narrated the main premise to said "that's straight up horror dude"
But like yk, bengali folklore and our love of ghosts. The main character is a very complex being (not exactly human, at least not anymore.) My main characters humanity, that died before the start of the story, haunts the narrative and the being she is now.
I'm worldbuilding so hard but like, it's genuine fantasy so a lot of ghosts and of course since my Bangladesh is a riverine country, a lot of river related geography and the rivers are characters of their own.
Also this story came to me in a dream on 23rd November 2014. I was chilling in Dhaka as an 8 year old. A lot has changed since then.
Also the main characters family is basically descended from shath bhai chompa. I'm crazy. And it's a huge plot point.
Also a lot of baghs and well a lot of environmentalism. My mc is a product of environmental manipulation. It's basically mother nature sends you as a fuck you letter to the government.
Also, a "spirit" haunts my main character the whole time (like bikrom betal/vikram betal). And then there's the whole body, heart and soul symbolism.
The prologue chapter starts as a putul nach scenario. Honestly will I ever finish this? Probably not. But if I ever do, will it just be me making jabs at my colonisers, the government and every authority figure there is? Yup. Also a lot of indigenous representation cuz Bangladesh sucks at that. Yeah no wonder I'm going insane. Also my main motivation to write this is to be present at the bengali ghost Wikipedia page at the writer's section.
