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im a danger to everyone around me

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if i dont talk to you it just means im happy for you because i think youre getting along fine without me, and getting what i provide with less complications

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He obviously doesn’t deserve you if he calls you a loser.

ITS NOT SO SIMPLE THO, the internet tells me that since boys are awful they soemtimes flirt by teasing??? and i dont know the difference between teasing and being mean???? and i dont know how to keep our interactions casual without having a Big Talk about how im a very sensitive person who likes praise

Terrible

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he keeps conversations brief, doesn't spend a lot of time making eye contact, makes you feel insecure with all the teasing he does, and you feel like you cant breach the wall of snark to have a real conversation and make a connection

why pretend he reciprocates anything. what does that accomplish. you are setting yourself up for disappointment

maybe i'll keep at it til the end of the year, ask him out, get rejected, and get closure. yes. i just want to not think about this anymore. i just feel so unlikable and undesirable and so inferior to him that he can just brush me off and i'll have feelings anyway

awful

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its ok. im calm. im ok. im stable. im ok. i didnt hurt myself. im ok

im really not upset by what they said im just upset by my own behavior

and i mean the background stuff about how i dont feel represented or accounted for in any of todays media but mostly it was what i did

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jjjjjjjjjjhhhhd

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i got a little tooe xcited because i never see anyone my color with my interests who looks like me and i guess like.............i feel like white ppl with Regular Interests have lots of fictional characters that at times they can identify with and be quiet about it but

i was a little overjoyed maybe because i never see any brown kids who like sweaters and flowers and im sorry

its just a little hard to be it when you cant see it

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i'm not done but give me an inch, here, or i dont think i can really. continue