iver is getting old but she’ll never be on my level
THIS IS A CALL OUT POST FOR THE BIRTHDAY GIRL, @jacksonwanga, y’all can scroll past thank you.
what are you now? a toddler? also, if you’re reading this, i must be sleeping because i scheduled it for your midnight.
unlike you, i’ll have paras and spacing. however, i’ll not have all this in small size because i is a lazy bitch and you just gotta deal with that.
anyway, happy birthday iver. i hope you have the greatest time and the great day and the greatest year and have super fun in the uni. i wish all the great things for you. i want nothing but the best for you because you deserve it.
i hope you know you can always count on me for shit. for everything ever. we’ve know each other for a while now and i even know about your cats so THAT’S SOMETHING in my books. i’ve enjoyed talking about football players to tv shows to kdrama to kpop nonsense. to ships and notps. to people we like and dislike. to celebs we like and dislike. to music we stan. to groups who make us come closer.
i’m so glad you opened your tiny mind over got7 and stanned the bubs because they’re the goat. but also that it made us so close. we always have/had football to fall back to but i love how we discovered new things.
like, i still remember vividly when your ass said it don’t want nothing to do with them but your heart wants what it wants. i’ve enjoyed rabbiting those 2jae videos and that 1 kdrama we half watched together.
i’ve enjoyed making fun of arsenal and me laughing over sanchez leaving arsenal but then crying over ozil staying. i’ve enjoyed the whole euro cup mess. i’ve enjoyed the whole skam mess as well.
i’ve know a lot of people over the past 6-7 years i’ve been on tumblr and twitter. i’ve called them friends and all but i’ve lost touch with majority of them. i’m glad we stuck around. i’m glad we found a way in our lives to be around each other.
i remember how we used to talk non-stop. every day every second whenever one of us were online but then i started job and your got busy with finals and we kinda had this distance between us but not for once i thought i lost you in any way. i always knew we’ll fall back into pattern when we’ll have time and we have time and again reached out to each other.
i’m sorry if i’ve ever distanced myself from you or if there has ever been a time where you’ve felt unwanted by me. i tend to have this thing where i just close off. i just start losing myself and it takes time for me to get my spirit back. and i’m really sorry for that.
and well at this point, idk what’s the point of this post. this bitch as post is supposed to be a birthday post and it’s turning into a depressing shit show.
i’m sorry lmao. i hope you enjoy today and for the rest of your life. end up with a partner who love you unconditionally.
have people around you who adore you and cares about you. have a job that you love and a pay which will cover for all concerts and merchs. i wish everything for you.
i still remember how we made plans to meet for a show one day. my broke ass isn’t sure if we’ll ever see that day but my rich heart sure hope we do. it’ll be weird as hell to talk in english 24/7. i hate that language jsghjgdfj but i’ll do it. we’ll live and survive and have the greatest time with the greatest boys on earth.
have cake today. i love cakes but i hardly get to eat them. have a cold coffee as well. i know you don’t like cold coffees but i make great cold coffee.
go clubbing like you enjoy it. do all the things you like.
also, you might or might NOT receive a gift this month (depends on my lazy ass) but we’ll see. if you have anything specific in mind @ me. or just suffer form my shit
i don’t have much to say tbh. like, i’m extremely bad with expressing myself emotionally lmao. i’m emotionally constipated and it’s just hard for me to write shit down.
i just hope that you know i do love you with all my chest. (disgusting). and that even if we drift in the future. we never end anything on the wrong foot. whatever we do, we do it mutually. i hope the love and respect never goes out.
also, idk if i should say it but i hope you feel confident in yourself. at times i can feel your insecurities about yourself and i hope that being around the right people, you develop to treat yourself right and that you get confident in yourself.
and well have the best time at the uni, study hard, party hard kinda nonsense.
i’ll leave it to that. i hope you understand where i’m coming from.
