It maybe the end of the week or the start of the week or whatever crap you think when Sunday is on the calendar but Sunday for me is the last day of the week. So technically speaking I'm still not way behind my last post promise. Oh well.
It so hard to find a time to just sit on my laptop and tell to the world whatever is happening around me. This week I need to study for five exams I guess??? then I need to help and do this and do that so to make the story short I AM BUSYYYY DUDEEEEEEEEE! Oh well. The damage has done at least I'm healthy and not sicky after that.
Remember my previous post about the crappy first semester. The "FIRST TURN" of the roller coaster ride. I guess I'm still moving on and DAMN it's hard. So what's the situation now between us??? Total strangers oh no lemme erase that... the right word is CLASSMATES. Yeah right! We're just PLAIN OLD CLASSMATES. I guess that was my fault dragging them to that state.... We're not talking like the good old times... I'm a lil'bit guilty about this but I can't really explain the feelings now.... I think my care for them was missing......
It's not like where enemies who constantly fight. Actually, I'm getting used to this, I guess??? When they talk to me about school stuffs, I'm not hostile to them. Or treating them like this is me being............. I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO....
Christmas break is just 5 days away and I'm still not decided what to do to them. These feelings for them really keeps me bugging lately since everybody in the room keep asking the same words, "What happened to you and them??" I guess this week I was ask 4x and I answer it twice. I really don't know what to do and who is wrong or what am I doing??? I guess being immature like me brought this questions whose answer I think are just right around the corner but I'm too blinded.
Anyways, as for the time being, I am now living like a nomad in our own little room. I go with anyone and anywho. I went anywhere and the good thing about this, I went to the org room BY MYSELF and stay long enough that my ass is so numb because I just sit all afternoon long in that chairs :)) I guess looking in the sunny side of things is a lot better.
As I was writing the previous paragraph, an idea occurred to me... If this crappy thing will be fixed, I guess the percent yield for me getting back that caring for them will be 50.... or a possibility of.....................
All I knew for now, I'm happy with coloring myself again with a lil'green added to the palette (guys if you know what I mean) and enjoying my time with my true friends and learning others :) Being free from them is keeping me alive now :)
OH WELL. Gadgets are on the way here at my hands. Once I received my winnings after a bet with my aunt and tweaking the net... I guess I can post everyday here ;) Wish me luck :) Last week of classes for 2K12 :)