╰ ☾ ₊ ⸻ @usyrps | 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋
𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐀𝐒 𝐀 𝐆𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐓 does Helaena stand silent vigil in the doorway, half in the room and half down the hall. Only after her eyes have started to ache from not blinking does one of the maesters takes notice of her. She's greeted in a rush of bows and stammered replies, the men quite startled by the unannounced appearance of their Queen amongst them.
"Be at ease, thank you," she murmurs. Her gaze is caught fast by the sickbed. Her dreams show her much, but she had only seen Aegon swallowed by the great blaze. She had not the imagination or morbidity for this. Helaena is unsure how much even masters of healing can improve upon. Dragonfire burns hot like no other fire the world knows. Few live long enough to require anything more than the final care of the Silent Sisters.
Aegon looks small and terrible against the stark whiteness of the clean sheets. Great lengths of skin have curled inward upon itself, like paper thrown into a fire. His one leg is twisted so that he will never run or ride or do many of the things he loves again. His one eye is melted shut in a cruel mimicry of Aemond's, and he lays in the same bed their father spent his final years rotting in. The room smells of ill. The room smells of flesh burning, even now. The dragon's legacy is fire and blood, is it not?
Helaena bites her tongue so hard she tastes blood. Without a conscious decision made, she goes to the windows to fling them open. Daylight pours in, nearly blinding her. She hears the murmuring of the maesters behind her. Their voices rustle in her ears like so much leaves beneath her foot. The scuttling of insects in undergrowth. She would have them gone.
"Is the King well enough that I may be left alone with him? Only for a little time," she does not want to hinder what can be done for him, but she finds words welling up within her that must be said. Sentiment buried and long left festering that must be leeched from the wound, though she in truth she knows not yet what she even means to say.
She does not wait for an answer before turning. Slow steps bring her to Aegon's side, and she waits for a chair to be brought to her before sitting. She is lucky she does not fall, for how she still will not look away from Aegon. Not in disgust, no, for she has never looked at him with such an emotion even at his worst. He is still her brother, and she has always loved him as much as she is able. Neither is it pity, for that would hardly be welcome either. How absurd, that she can't put a name to it at all.
"My King. Husband. Brother. They've brought you home," her voice catches tight in her throat. Tears burn at the corner of her eyes. Her hands wring in her lap, a nervous tic borrowed from mother. Are they destined to only be parts of those around them, the wretchedest, saddest parts? Gods, how she wants to weep for them all. But tears are not what Aegon needs.











