#vacua-s

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I miss you more than I can remember missing another person.

You were toxic and you've poisoned me, but I miss you so fucking much.

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You play the victim

But you forgot just as easy as I did.

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"Our song came on and my heart broke with every note."

Me

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You said you wrote poems about things you love but you never wrote poems about me

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I've been so excited to have a good birthday for once that if it goes to shit I seriously don't even know what I'll do

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The empty periods between major episodes.

The sadness that follows the emptiness is another kind of sadness, unlike the one I'm used too.

Its like theres a stone in my chest.

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Im being forced to sit here in absolute silence while expecting not to fucking hurt myself No laptop, head phones, or ipod and im expected to just fucking handle that Im expected to sit here with the voices telling me to cut and burn and kill and just... do nothing? No distractions, nothing You dont have any idea what youre fucking doing to me Sticking a knife between my ribs and twisting while i bleed out would hurt less than this

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I would of fucked the shit out of younger jack nicholson