Broken Things || Valentin&Bellamy
For a few minutes her hands had distinct red lines down them, rope burn from tugging up the large tent alone, the material supported by the surrounding trees. It was muscle memory, from times long since past. It was odd to be reminded of how easy it was, how she simply knew what to do. Even when she'd made the tent, sewing ridiculous amounts of the sun proof fabric together in anticipation of this moment, she had been sure it would not come back to her without mental strain. And yet, with healing hands, she realised it was all still within her.
In truth, the tent, much like many things over the years, had been an excuse to delay this moment. She rationalised she needed the tent, because what if he was angry, it would be dangerous for Merry if he suddenly appeared. She needed the clothes she had sewn for him because how else should he know she had not simply become some silly thoughtless thing out in the world, it would disappoint him even if he was mad if she was so lacking. Less tangibly, she needed to learn to be on her own, or else how was she to know if she truly felt about him as she thought she did and not just because he was caring for her? So many things had allowed Bella to push away breaking the charm she'd made upon her arrival, when she knew, and always had, she was afraid he would not come, not because he couldn't but because he simply didn't care to. Fear of his anger and vengeance had caused her to run, and lingered in her as the weeks had followed the fire, but she knew if he were angry, if he truly wanted her dead, he'd have found her. And so fear of anger shifted to fear of indifference.
She still felt that fear when she'd slipped into the coffin within the tent, her wolves lingering outside so she would not be disturbed with the sun crossing the sky. It had taken most of the night to rise the large tent within the dense Destarin Woods towards Withermore, to set it up with her large coffin, to bury some blood outside the tent deep within the ground so it remained cold and less likely to turn sour and unuseable. Bella had even packed in a small chest some of the garments she'd made for him, as well as attire for herself for the week as she knew arrival on the first evening was unlikely, travelling to Destarin from his estate had taken her days and who was she to know where he lingered now. She'd laid a small mattress next to the standing coffin, piled some books beside it atop the trunk that she had collected over the years when she saw them and thought of him. Maybe it would all be meaningless but now she was ready.
Bella was sure of this as darkness closed around her, the lid of her coffin tightly shutting with a woosh of air, sealed shut. In her heart she felt whatever was to come she was ready for, even if some options were less appealing than others. She thought on the variety of them as she laid there, aware of the time as though she were counting it. Some were pleasant fantasies, while others horrific pains, some were simply dreams as she drifted in and out of consciousness, exhausted but unwilling to rest entirely. These imaginings only stopped when she knew she were only a few minutes from sunrise, aware as her slender cold fingers reached up to the vial at her chest that whatever happened things would be forever changed for her. The prints of her fingers rubbed over the magical glass, tenderly caressing her enchanted blood within.
Blood dripped over the pads of her fingers and garment she wore as the near silent snapping of glass occurred between her index digit and thumb. The sensory feeling secondary to the ethereal one within her form. It tightened within her body, that bond that had been made lax by the enchantment, her veins reconnected to themselves and connected to his own, not constricted but held, her shoulders straightening while blood ran down her fingers.
She hoped it woke him, hoped he rushed, all she could do now was wait.