@vancorius said: “ you should’ve ended me while you still had the chance . ” lost meme.
‘ i could. ’
she won’t , they both know she won’t. & at this point , maybe she couldn’t . she cares too much & can’t quite pinpoint why. it’s not as though he’s been particularly nice to her , he hasn’t really reciprocated her attempts to reach out , & that’s fine. it’s not as though she’d be deterred by something like that.
‘ but i won’t. ’
she can’t , not really. if she destroyed him , it would feel wrong , as if she believed he couldn’t change. that would mean giving up on herself as well , & for the sake of her friends , she couldn’t really do that. if she killed him , she’d be admitting that he couldn’t change , & by extent , that perhaps she hadn’t .
but it’s not so much like that. she’s not as cruel as to use him to make herself feel better. no , somehow...aqua cares about vanitas , something she doubts either of them expected. but she doesn’t put up such a front around him , whether he’s noticed or cares that much to notice. even if he doesn’t , she doesn’t feel like she has to , & that’s probably for the better.
she loves ven & terra , but she can’t stand to let them see her any way but how they knew her , if only more remorseful .
she doesn’t let them see the bitter , the anger , the pain that clings to her ribs & gnaws at the bone.
‘ because as hard as it might be for you to believe, i care about you. and that means i don’t want to hurt you. so....i won’t. it’s as simple as that. ’