#vendacti writing

[benedictive-shaman]

Chat I think I'm kinda getting into Valenweis after finally watching the last series of dusks ending

There's so much potential grrrrrrrr

But I'll finish the Willow thing first!

[benedictive-shaman]

Was gonna write something but then I did naneinf in Balatro whoops

Anyways I've got the idea sort of shaped out in my head now. I'll give a little snippet of the concept to prove that I am actually maybe writing things soon. Also a new tag for all my writing related stuff since that's something I'm going to do now maybe.

Basically it takes place after the Uluru finals, the result of which doesn't really matter here and intend to leave ambiguous. Charlotte and Caroline are wordlessly sitting across from each other at a table in Willow's house. Charlotte breaks the silence with something to the effect of "So this is how it is? Everything goes back how it used to be". Caroline, who already seemed a little 'off', very harshly rebukes the statement with something like "No, something needs to change. We can't keep on going like this forever". The conversation steers towards what Willow intends to do in her life besides Floor Ritual. Outwardly the conversation is about their pursuits in life and Caroline did, in part, mean that. It is, however, clear what the true meaning behind those words was, well to everyone except Charlotte that is. A barbed insult from Charlotte finally causes these feelings to bleed out and it becomes a mess for them both.

Maybe they do naughty stuff idk maybe in an additional chapter or something.

[benedictive-shaman]

Thinking about how in an AU where they're seperated for all eternity Soohyeon would think of Tindoiimu every single time she sees a butterfly. Super messy stuff ahead I'm sorry I just wanted to write something.

It hurts of course, to have those memories burst forth again. It's a dull, throbbing pain that's been worn down by the years yet it doesn't hurt any less. It's just less sharp. She ran out of tears a long long time ago so she can only stare in mournful silence at the fluttering wings of that butterfly.

It does, however, provoke a bit of wistfulness in Soohyeon. That maybe this butterfly is a message from her, a symbol of her distant affection. Soohyeon knows this isn't the case, of course, but she can dream, it's all she has. She thinks that maybe Tindoiimu is out there thinking about her as well, seeing her face within the churning ocean waves. It comforts her for a moment, to know that her burning love, her trust self had taken root inside another person.

The thought inevitably spirals downward. 'Is it selfish of me to take solace in this?' is the thought that takes root in her mind. Soohyeon knows all too well this pain of seperation; so why is it that she wants Tindoiimu to feel it too? It's a question she cannot truly answer.

'Would it have been better if I said nothing?' is the thought that always follows. She could have just kept her mouth shut, and all these feelings sealed inside. It could have remained an unobtainable dream of hers, always out of reach. She knew if she ever tried to grab the sun it'd just burn her. She understood all of this then and yet her hands still clawed through the burning heat so as to hold the sun, if only just for a moment.

It's a foolish line of thought, entirely unaware of her own feelings. She knows in her heart that if she never said anything than the regret would have crushed her. If not then it would have eventually swallowed her whole. Nothing but endless deliberation over what have might have been. It would have killed her.

The butterfly quickly flutters out of view, snapping her divergent lines of thought together.

Soohyeon just....

Soohyeon just loves Tindoiimu and hopes that maybe Tindoiimu does too. That maybe in pouring her heart out that Soohyeon provided some comfort to Tindoiimu. The knowledge that she is loved, that no matter what that Soohyeon's heart is only for her.

Soohyeon just wishes things could have been different.

Soohyeon just wants to see her one last time.