@venomiisms said:
“Change is exhausting. I feel like there’s nowhere to hide from all the newness of everything. Except here. With you.”
clint had no idea what to say. words weren’t his thing at all, meanwhile she was saying these meaningful things and looking at him like that. that damn look. those green eyes, they burrowed through it all. he could try to write it off, to push the feelings away but those eyes always saw right through it. they made him sweat way more than he should. maybe that’s what he loved about her.
he opened his lips several times, multiple breaths to speak only to close once again, wordlessly the air was getting stale between them and it was like he could feel the disappointment. he didn’t know what else to try, he had to say something.
“ kiss me, ” he whispered, almost so quiet even he couldn’t hear it himself. it was a stupid thing to say, when had he ever asked for anything ? if he had more than this split second he’d be having a conversation with himself, the phrase ‘ barton, you dummy ’ would be bouncing around his head. but instead, he just slammed his lips against hers. it wasn’t a gentle kiss, it was a heavy one, grabbing her, holding her as close to himself as he could as if hoping that somehow him gripping her hard enough he was afraid to bruise her would mean something.
suddenly it hit him. usually feeling her stole his breath, made him breathless and wordless and suddenly the words came to him already. finally he parted, avoiding her gaze as he always did when he said something like this. he couldn’t ever look at her in case he sounded like an idiot.
“ you’re wrong. ” he knew he could expect some quick reaction from her, he should be acting fast but suddenly time stood still, almost taking an eternity to talk again in his mind. “ everything changes here. ”
“ this place used to just be a mess of endless stupid arrow shirts. there was nothing here before you. you changed everything here and if you feel like this is safe you’re only proving my point. everything changes, even this. even us. but change isn’t always bad. you changed this place from an apartment to a home. ”
