Venting about my ex (cw: mentions of system hopping, implied abuse/neglect, implied cheating)
If you ever really loved me you wouldn’t have needed any of them. But you didn’t, did you. You even replaced me with someone else instead of even asking to talk to me. It was just too much for you.
You can’t have one or two partners, no, you need five fucking partners and you’re always adding more. Just shows how little you care about the partners you already have. I was always an accessory to you. You didn’t care about me as a person you only cared that I was Rantarou.
Why couldn’t you ask to talk to me? Why couldn’t you tell me you loved me yourself? Why did you have to pretend like I could magically make my way over to your headspace?
Why couldn’t you just love me and Kazuichi - why did it have to be me, and Kazuichi, and anyone else you could possibly get your hands on? Why did you have to hurt us in the way that you did? Why couldn’t you be fucking faithful???
Why, why, why, why, why. All these questions aren’t going to magically bring you back or undo the hurt you did me. Not to mention the various ways you’ve hurt others in our system. Fuck you for fucking with us in the way that you did.
You’re the worst. I wish that you weren’t. But I also hope you don’t remember me fondly. If you’re going to hate Kazuichi, hate me too.