#venti journals

[barenjunges]

i’ve been working on my theme and pages here to distract myself from everything, so now everything here looks how i want it to but i have no recent writing to post to it /:

i told myself i wouldn’t write this week anyway but i ended up really not writing because i just can’t focus, i keep thinking about my cat /: but i’m going to try to get back into things next week so hopefully i’ll have something to post. not sure why i’m worried since no one talks to me here but if we’re mutuals, just know that i’m rooting for you and have been reading your posts! happy writing everyone 💖

[barenjunges]

going to make even more new ocs for this blog. the past 36 hours have been the hardest of my entire life and that is not hyperbole. this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me. and i feel guilty going back to writing but that’s illogical and creating stuff is what helps me process things. but i’m trying to decide on a procedure for it; last time i just shuffled my music and picked a line from a random song. so who knows what i’ll do this time!

[barenjunges]

warning for animal death-

i originally was taking a break from writing this week but then thought i might work on stuff for this blog after all. then this morning i lost my cat very suddenly and it was quite severe and intense. and i am just. i’m inconsolable. but i’m done with the shock crying and more into depressed/sad crying. and it got me to thinking about how we use art to grieve but at what point is it acceptable to stop thinking about the grief and start creating again? but isn’t art what relieves that grief? so i was just thinking about that and thought journaling here would maybe help even though no one really knows me here.

anyway, if you are reading this and have a donut, please take a bite in his honor because the dude went pretty batty for donuts