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i can’t narrow down the songs it’s too hard.....

#sound horizon #laurantgreeting #venting atmo #and still more songs that wouldn't fit

so between travel, illness, anxiety/depression, work and more of the same, i haven’t really been on here for the past while. i almost categorically avoid talking about myself on social media, but i really want to put some of these thoughts in a place outside of me

i’ve been planning vacation with my family for months, but i never managed to convince myself i really wanted to go, so now I'm sitting in a hotel debating if the fee is worth it to just fly home early. i had a fever the whole time i was traveling, and before that my computer keyboard broke which is balls because literally the only thing i wanted to do on this trip is sit by the pool and type. and on top of that i got my first traffic violation the night before i left because it was midnight and someone was tailgating me, so i sped up to get away from them (being that i am a panicky, nervous wreck 80% of my life), and lo and behold it was a cop, so thanks for that, my man

not to mention the past few days i’ve just been sitting here fantasizing about quitting my job. theoretically, i love teaching, and i have had/currently have students whom i honestly think I've been a good fit for. but i started teaching English on top of Spanish this year, and i’m going to be leading some electives next semester, and i’m so internally absorbed right now that i can barely keep up with their assignments. and a couple of my students still don’t know what a verb is, and i do no KNOW how to teach English or Spanish if i can’t make you understand what a fricken verb is??? what do i even do at this point? i cannot teach some of these kids--I'm just not a good match!

but idk what else there is for me to do. nothing sounds appealing. i feel too indebted to the school to leave them, anyways. even if i did leave after next semester when my contract ends, i’ve let myself grow so deeply introverted and neurotic these past couple of years, i really don’t think i could even make it through a job interview without a panic attack

sheesh... anyways, thanks if you read this far

(something vaguely positive at least... i came out to my brother just so i could tell a joke. that’s cute/funny, right??)

#venting atmo #no reblogs or platitudes plz #hugs and pats on the back are fine

honestly relieved so many people have said they liked the designs for the twins. every step of the way (lines, flats, shading + details) i'd get to Ambarussa and be like, 'actually, i don't even like elves. i don't like art. i don't care anymore,' and then i'd move the hue slider back and forth one thousand times until they were magically finished

#venting atmo

i still have stuff sitting in my likes from 12+ months ago that i never reblogged.. i am so far behind, and yet i have consistently refused to use a queue. why am i like this???

#venting atmo #gonna try to set up a queue for this first time in like... a decade or however long i've had this blog #also maybe time for an icon update??

my goal was to post way more this year, but my computer’s acting up, and--despite replacing both parts--it won’t charge unless i manually hold the power supply in the jack. kind of a pain but surmountable. only problem is that i misplaced my tablet pen. so i haven’t managed much creatively the past month. (will hopefully post some traditional art in the near future, but friendly reminder that i do have a ko-fi if you wanna help me get my computer some professional expertise)

#venting atmo #anxiety is making finding the pen #significantly more cyclopean a task than it should be #thanks brain #hope i don't have to replace that too...#the pen #not my brain tho that might be nice #sigh

catinacrabsuit reblogged your photo and added:

Sarah you all need SuikoBros tshirts!!

that sounds fabulous, but historically speaking, i’m not known for actually getting around to making t-shirts when i say i will

#catinacrabsuit #venting atmo #friends

heyyy made an art blog @atmo-draws

i’ll probably still reblog my art to this blog, but if you just wanna see my arts or otherwise support me, please consider checking it out :) :)

#venting atmo #also updating my avatar b/c i've had this for eons

Prince No. 3

I would've tried harder, but I'm leaving for Mongolia in a week, and there are like ten billions things I still have to do, and I'm still not sure that I'm not going to die a horrible death, because, oh my god, it’s on the other side of the world, and I am not at all mentally prepared, and how do you even speak Mongolian; I know like three words, and what if mare's milk doesn't taste good at all, and aaaah.

So, yeah, that's why I kind of gave up on this.

#my art #original #venting atmo