#veryunlikely

[veryunlikely]

I want to be independent, forgiving, loving and soft.

[vincentmeangogh]

vincentmeangogh at Frida Kahlo & Diego Rivera exhibition 🌼

[tailycaos]

El silencio impasible  🐜   ☁︎ 

[veryunlikely]

why i left you

i long for you every day and every night 

but it feels like the only way to be okay is to be hurting. 

[veryunlikely]

[veryunlikely]

im rereading my diary from when I was 11, and

“I won’t make the same mistake by chasing a stupid worthless boy around who doesn’t even deserve my great amount of love”

where did she go? I want 11 year old me back

[veryunlikely]

I just really really really want to be happy

[veryunlikely]

This has nothing to do with my blog but I kinda just thought of this and wanted to write it down. I used to be afraid that I couldn’t love others, but I think it was just a way of protecting myself from getting attached and hurt. Now I’m more terrified that I’ll never find love. So far, from my experience, the nice innocent boys who like me at first all end up slowly falling out of love with me. Because for them my flaws and my past and my problems are too much to handle. On the other hand, the broken boys, or bad boys, whatever u want to call them. Hurt people hurt people. They don’t really want to get to know me, they’re too busy with their own agenda.

For now I’ve learned to be happy by myself, I just got out of a relationship and I’m focusing on my studies. I’m really content with the progress and productivity I’ve found in my time alone. But I still think about it sometimes. What if I never find love?