31.12.21 // This year I found myself struggling a lot to keep up with assignment deadlines and just getting any sort of studying/ work done. I felt slightly defeated not because I wasn’t being productive but because I stopped doing things I genuinely enjoyed.
This coming year I want to try getting back to doing things I enjoy. I’m going to try doing the #100 days of productivity challenge. Will I be able to keep up? Who knows; but the changing of the years on the calendar always fills me with fervour to try starting new things. One of my primary hurdles is accountability. So with this post I also hope to keep myself accountable (also hoping the community here keeps me accountable ^.^)
(also to be fair, I now have a pile of assignments, exams and readings I need to get to xD)
Ok but think about Mingi in all of his fluffy affectionate glory showing up at your place drunk and trying to jump your bones. He towers over you and pins you against a wall so he can mark you up. Stumbling and giggling while carrying you into the bedroom to throw you on the bed and just stopping for a second to stare at you because he can't believe how pretty you look. Sloppy. Laughing. Marked up. Messed up.
I COULDNT HAVE SAID IT BETTER MYSELF 😭😭
NSFW UNDER CUT !! UNDER 15’s DNI !!
He’s so drunk outta his mind that everything’s funny and you’re oh so so pretty and come here y/n!! He needs cuddles!! He can’t stop himself from giggling even when he’s kissing you and nibbling at your neck. He’s messy because he’s drunk but he’s also slow, since he keeps getting sidetracked. Totally fumbles the condom, like bro can’t even get it on and he’s frowning and trying so badly and your just sitting there like 😐 when he gets back on track tho hes’s fucking into you deep but slower than usual.
His movements are sluggish with fatigue and his intoxicated state. He’s kissing and giggling the whole time, taking his time to adore you while he makes you feel good. He’s also more whiny than usual, his adrenaline pumping from the drinks and his heads swimming. He just wants you, wants to feel good, wants to make you feel good.
Totally falls asleep as soon as your coming down from your highs, that mountain of a man collapsing next to you in a sweaty, smiling mess and drifting off to sleep hugging you close. Whiny asf when he wakes up in the morning tho, asking you to look after him because he’s sick :(( and you’re just like no sirrrrr you are drunk and it’s all your fault but I shall begrudgingly look after my enormous man baby.
I realize after re-reading my response about the whole Andy Biersack/Palate Royale thing that it might have come off as aggressive so I apologize. I guess I just get defensive about them because a lot of people like to talk sh*t about anything involving them without knowing any of the background info 😆
Ah no worries I didn't interpret it like that whatsoever and I actually really appreciated the sharing of knowledge ahaha. I knew Andy and Remi were both very happy to do the project so I just shrugged the choice off, any content of Andy is a bonus, and boy do I love Remis covers of all those songs so 👍🏻👍🏻 zero complaints from me hehe
But I'm glad now I can finally place why they had made that choice! 🐛
Bondage: No | rather not | I dunno | I guess | Sure | Yes | FUCK yes | Oh god you don’t even know | - I’m not entirely sure if I’m supposed to explain but, I’m not into like super hardcore bondage but, I love some light sensory deprivation. I also really love Shibari but, I guess that’s not something you can do just “casually.”
Pet Play: No | rather not | I dunno | I guess | Sure | Yes | FUCK yes | Oh god you don’t even know |- This one I feel like I HAVE to explain because pet play at it’s fullest extent is something I don’t think I would ever be interested in. But, some short term pet play every now and then 🤷🏼♀️ eh.
I finished my masters degree and I still feel lost. There is some clarity as to what I want to do but I feel drained. So much seems to have been packed into these past two years which elapsed both knowingly and unknowingly. People on my socials seem to be moving forward while I still feel stuck. Despite knowing that for an objective outsider I too appear to have made progress.
I’m so fearful of not having financial independence, especially when it seems like everyone around me does. My jaw is always clenched and I have to remind myself to relax it, though lately it feels like I’ve forgotten how to do even that.
Despite all these whirling thoughts, I’m still excited to see where I end up at the end of this year. I think it’s the endless possibilities that make me fearful but I want to turn this fear into excitement.
Currently reading: The Tyranny of Merit by Micheal J. Sandel
Stayed up way past my bedtime to finish a term paper for my class on Japanese political economy. Somewhat satisfied with what I had to say, hopefully my professor feels the same way.
