Okay, so. TIME FOR ANOTHER NOA RANT, I’m so so sorry guys.
So, Noa’s mind was uploaded into a supercomputer, right? Well, I doubt that even a computer that powerful, especially considering the time period (it def has nothing on what Seto was making in the DsoD era, for instance) would be able to contain the entire mind of a human being, even a child, including all of their memories, their personality, preferences, AND their core…sentience or whathaveyou. Not to mention, although he was mostly stagnant and didn’t seem to age pysically, he was still learning new things, getting information off the internet (?) etc.
I think in the first place that not all of Noa made it to the digitalworld, but also that the longer he stayed there, the more of his older memories, ideals, etc. would be deleted to make room for the new ones. (I already have my own theories hcs etc about the “real Noa” vs the “digital virus copy” Noa but quick aside that the idea of his already existing files not only being deleted but being corrupted probably is. Quite unpleasent.)
Not to mention that imo the digitalworld is essentially Hell in some form (I even have made a Dante-esque layer system out of it but that’s another post), and isolation in a place like that will degrade your sanity even if you WEREN’T slowly having your human memories and all being deleted/corrupted. (oh and the thought of what happens when you fuse a consious human mind with a computer program like that is quite horrific in an “the angles cut me when I try to think” type of way, considering he’s alive and knows he’s a person but also. Very much not)
So yeah, I would have been willing to do pretty much anythig to get out of there, especially since he’d been there for I think a little under a decade already? He probably thought he’d be there forever, and he still mostly had the maturity and development of a preteen. Of course he did bad things, he was desperate and scared, and probably also under the influcence of some major file corruption (which I sorta associate with his Biblical prophet thing, there’s no way the ‘voice of god’ he hears is actually some benevolent diety but ANYWAY).
I’m sorry for how incoherent this was I’m just. Him…