Aug 31, 2025
JOHANN'S CLOSE-UP.
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JOHANN'S CLOSE-UP.
&. i'm telling you, you're making a mistake;
you think you're better off alone; you think your sins require it, but they don't; you couldn't be more wrong.
ENDLESS JOHANN'S GIFS. (?/??)
you are still on my mind, my beautiful moon; sweet, arrogant.
FIRST MEETING, 2009.
Anaïs Dorléac, daughter of Édouard Dorléac &. Leyla Hashem⸺the middle child, the forgotten child; amongst siblings who have become a doctor &. an architect, she is the ordinary of them all . . . a publicist, working behind the stars she once wanted to become, as her face was deemed too ethnic for the casting directors; dimmed her light before she even started, &. yet somehow, redirect her to be the moon in the night, as johann took a glimpse of her with curiosity of drunken bachelor. a smile, a laugh, &. an introduction; naivety became their greatest judgement. barefoot feet touching the sands, the tide consistently rising as she walks into the night⸺enchanted, as if the aphrodite with onyx tresses rose from the pearl: he gravitated towards her &. she took his hand; through the night the waves whisper her name, foreign, but seemed right, as it rolled within his tongue . . . drown, into eternity of happiness, as it is the beginning of an eclipse.
FAMILY MEETING, SEPTEMBER 2009.
Johann Dreyman, son of Martha Dreyman &. unknown father⸺the only child of incompleteness. her mother did protest: what do you know about his father? nothing! judgement, as he caught her mother's rise of tone behind the curtain whilst her solemn father didn't say anything to drown the commotion . . . women of their plight, you can't defy them, her father whispered to the tea in front of them. johann smiled, cautiously; but mother, i am in love with him . . . love? will you marry him1? a laugh, dissipating from her father's lips: marriage, the answer of her mother's disapproval. her father would approve it, as he wouldn't be suffer alone in cultural disposition⸺the doctor hadn't found the time to get married but he has his beau, a figure the mother had approved. the architect? she is still too young; her mother thought it was too soon. but Anaïs? twenty-eight, with child-bearing hips, she smiled eventually; as she agreed to be married before he even proposed. as clock is ticking; it is her qodrat as a woman. but she had other hopes, as she hoped he would agree. foolishly. he did. as he didn't want to get married in the first place⸺it's too soon, too fast. but it meant he could be with her. &. he was contented with that, within a firm handshake between him &. her white father, he finally have a father, but the mother that was skeptical about him.
THE ARRANGEMENT, 2010.
Johann Dreyman &. Anaïs Dreyman, a loving couple smiled behind coruscating diamond she carried on her ring finger. Between kisses they sealed the arrangement she &. him had meticulously created behind veiled curtain: they loved each other, but they could see other people in the name of freedom either crave. though for he, it only meant he could have her, whilst others couldn't; her heart is within his hand to be consumed. but her mind? her body? only for hers to be had. it was the same for his, as he offered his heart wholeheartedly; he only loved her, &. 'tween his prick &. balls, it would be contained by pale sheet. they loved each other, their marriage could work, as they both have each other to love. &. freedom? it become their breakfast, lunch, &. dinner. but for supper? it was silent neglect. but they were children of neglect, &. with each other: they could tolerate it.
THE NEGLIGENCE, 2015.
Johann Dreyman &. Anaïs Dreyman, a loving couple whose marriage had slowly drifted; the tide was too high to maintain, as the light within the lighthouse had dimmed. he thought he loved her too much, it earned him a few laughs amongst his friends when one of them caught their arrangement. did it embarrass him? at some point, but he did agree, &. it was consensual⸺neither force each other to still be together, &. yet: something forced them to still together, even when she slowly drifted from him. but the waves always come the shore, &. the rocks come to the sand again: a hold, as he kissed her trembling shoulders from behind .. he understood⸺but the baby will always be his, no matter what; she is married to him, &. he is married to her, so naturally, it is his. but it also hers, it hers foremost; she would bear it for nine months. mother is the first person that could tell their child that their child is theirs, but fathers? they can be forgotten. but he chose to remain, as he knew it will be his.
THE ACCIDENT, 2016.
Johann Dreyman &. Anaïs Dreyman, a couple whose marriage had split; wreck into a turn of storm in the slippery ground, with her blood cascade from both of her legs. an escape from her troubled mind, resulting to the blood pooling underneath with the oil. she was persistent that day, to travel alone to her family because she had missed it; missed the fight, the deafening shouts that remind her she was becoming a mother, whilst their house merely offered cautious reminder of it. guilt had become his breakfast, lunch, &. dinner. as his body lurching on the ground to keep himself sane outside of the door, whilst the deafening silence of machine beeping only one than two. they tried to mend it, with glue between splinters piercing to their fingers; cautious, yet dangerous. a mother &. father of soulless son on the crib, that soon be buried into the ground of cold winter. spring baby, like her, was no more. &. their spring marriage became winter of fruitless deed.
THE ENDING, 2017.
Johann Dreyman &. Anaïs Dorléac, two people, no longer as one. unbelonging, &. drifted. she had returned to her family with the arms of new beau that kept her afloat, without the sickening eyes imbued with desolation &. sorrow, whilst he threw himself over the cliff of pitiless position; the ship has sunken, yet the boats stayed afloat within forgotten storm. he found his new freedom without being attached to anyone, but he eventually found some people, which equal to him, well some of them; but his latest one seemed to be beneath him. but then again, she wanted to be equal with him, which he tried to lower himself for her. Anaïs had become sweet reminder of his foolishness, but his heart is bigger than the ocean, with the moon became unreachable.