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Me being me, didn't look at the amount of stars when playing all the songs. Thoughts when play this song- "hmmm? Kinda fast? Or is the fact that my eyes are tired? I don't remember the song being this difficult???" It turns out that the circus themed song is of a higher level of difficulty than the normal live....
Happiness Jar 2018
Decided to write down memories that makes me happy for the whole of this year. I started this due to the Leo guy. Like what my counsellor said, the situation hurt me so deeply. I couldn’t stop crying over him. I am pleasantly surprised that my jar is quite full for this year. Personally I hope I am able to work out my inner turmoil & learn to trust again....
Counselling
Speaking with a counsellor has allowed me to see things differently....
I was told I’ve put off the much needed 1st session... Lots of red flag from the way I grew up... But not so much of red flags regarding me attempting suicide...
Now here comes the question of me continuing or not...
I’m not going to get the scent you prefer. I’m not going to get the style of dress you like so much on me. It takes 2 hands to clap & I’m exhausted. I guess I’m just a convenient person. I’m more than willing to help you when you ask. I’m more than willing to get food for you when you are sick. In the end, after crossing the line you are doing everything you can to avoid me. “When you are free?” “I don’t know.” I will cut communication with you. I will get over you. Just let me cry.
あなたに恋していいですか?
私じゃダメかな?
ずっとずっと一緒にいれたらいいのに･･･
本気で好きなんです
なんで夜になると あなたのことばかり考えてしまうんだろう
A daily reminder to myself.... I wish I would stop crying so much in 2018. I don’t think it’s happening anytime soon....
I wish I can stop crying.... my heart hurts.. why? I wished I’ve not known you... can I just disappear? Can I restart my life?
I have decided to give up. Exhausted. Rejection sucks, especially from someone you like. There’s so much I can take. Now, I still have work related stuff to worry about.... I hope I don’t collapse from overwork or stress..... let’s hope I can survive 2017...
I don't know how much longer I can pretend that I'm fine..... I hate how much I love you.
