The smell of wood, beer, sweat. The sound of many voices, mingled together yet muffled, blocked by a thick oak door. The fire in the corner, warming the room in ways the ones at home never could.
I remember it was small and how enamored I was with the idea of a small, enclosed space. I remember the feel of the table beneath my mortal hands. I remember the taste of wine on my tongue, dark and red.
I can't tell you what time it was or what clothes I was wearing. I barely remember what clothes he was wearing, but to be honest my eyes were lost in his expression, both fond and guarded at the same time, as though he'd begun the night with one plan of action that had somehow been derailed.
It was mortal, it was beautiful, and it was a level of quiet understanding I had only ever felt in the presence of my mother, but ah! This was openness, this was honesty, this was an inebriated sweetness I hadn't known I could achieve.
Almost gone, if I reach for it. Not the night or the idea of the night, but the details I wish I could tuck into a pocket and keep for a rainy day.