why should I stay? [payback]
Why did that one sentence feel like the hardest question to answer, if he had asked anything else it would have been no problem but this, this question was something she was not prepared for. He was going to leave and go home never to return. She felt so alone she might as well have been back on her island.
All her thoughts became muddled together and she was not sure what to say first, I need you, I care for you, without you I am incomplete, without you the world is less fun to be in? “Without you I cannot see myself being coping.” It was all true the turmoil she was feeling was beginning to make her stomach hurt, she was no an eloquent speaker, she did not know how to put her words into something he would understand. He would be alright without her, he would go on and be happy but she would not be able to forget him.
All of a sudden it was as it the raft was coming to get him and take him from her but she would not go down without a fight this time. She wrapped her arms around him hugging him tightly, this was not something they did but she had to let him know to find the words to express what she was feeling “You cannot leave, I will not let you. If you leave you will be taking a part of me with you a big part of me that I did not mean to give away. I love you Jaiden and if you go..” her voice trailed off as her hold became tighter around him wanting him to sense her feelings for him, know they were true. She had put her heart on the line hoping he would stay