💝 - have they ever been in love, and with who?
⚠️ - the worst deed they’ve done/crime they’ve committed?
💝 - have they ever been in love, and with who?
‘I...dunno.” he flushes instantly, brown skin taking on a tint of red but there’s a certain kind of honesty to his answer. “Sometimes...I wanna think I have...other times I feel like there are things I’ve felt...that just that. Somethin’ I wanted t’believe in. Like uh..ghosts. There’s plenty that likely ain’t seen ‘em, but..everybody talks. I probably fake seen it more times than I kin count.’
“I reckon...what’s more likely I’ve felt versions’ve th’big ‘L’ word, found many reasons t’love on another, but...don’t think I’ve ever -been- in love. Never felt that real...thing. Jus’...th’ideas’ve it. Things that’ll be pale reflections, terrible comparions’ve th’real thing.”
“At this point, I doubt I ever will be, an’ have long since passed th’point’ve admittin’ I could be wit ‘anyone else. It’s...not fer me, I’ve decided, with tentative willingness t’be surprised.”
⚠️ - the worst deed they’ve done/crime they’ve committed?
“Guess it...make a certain sense t’explain m’views on ‘crime’. There is no such thing as law. No dictation’ve what people can or can’t do. Only th’pursuit’ve happiness, an’ self-fulfillment: so long as it don’t interfere with th’freedom’s of another. So th’only true crimes t’me, are those which restricted that’ve others. Moral crimes, I’d call these, I reckon.” he clears his throat.
“....so there’s uh...a few things behind this. A code, if y’will. Murder ain’t really...so bad. I mean it is, if done fer th’wrong reasons. That sounds like a slippery slope but there’s more to it. Preservation’ve life is important - but sometimes sacrifices are made to take care’ve th’whole. Puttin’ down a rabid dog, t’preserve th’pack fer example. An’ even then, only as a last resort. Th’idea is that y’did everything, ” he licks his lips, as if putting this in words either evoked certain memories, or made the subject more difficult to speak. Eventually, he swallows. “Everything y’could’ve ‘til there was nothin’ left else to do.”
“I killed a man once. In cold blood. It’s...different. I’ve taken lives before. Not many, but I have. They don’t quite haunt ya’ like th’ones that ain’t quite deserve it. This man, there was hope fer him, likely. Someone I likely could’ve come t’even terms wit’...an’ eventually take ‘im on at a time where odds at least was comparable. I didn’t though. Took his life over some dumb emotions. Never seen it comin’. Neither’ve us did, I reckon.”
@henessy-ffxiv - thank you for the ask, please accept this very belated answer!