Diary Entry || Headcanon
It is a funny thing, I have a lot of girlfriends who seem to think that love or rather having a significant other is so important. They seem to think that it is important particularly for appearance purposes. When one of them breaks up with someone they worry about how it will look when they go to parties. This never makes any sense to me at all. When I start dating again (whenever that is), I hope it will be with someone who I could be friends with.
I think people get the wrong idea about me. They assume I'm one of those girls who is looking for a prince charming and I will be the princess. I will be swept off my feet and get married and live happily ever after and blah blah blah. But I want something much more simple then that, and I never ever want to be called a princess. Maybe my ideas and needs will change in the future, but right now I just want to hold someone in my arms. I've learned that even though at the moment I don't have a career path, I can take care of myself. I don't want someone who needs to puff up their chest and protect me. I want a partner, not a knight in shining armor.
There is something...a fantasy I suppose; it will probably sound silly but it is what I want. I want that moment, when you've spent the night with a person, and they wake up to get ready while you are still asleep in bed. You can hear them shuffling about smell their scent as they get themselves together for the day. They might catch you watching, but they just smile and come over, stealing a kiss and telling you to go back to bed. You do, or at least pretend to; something about that moment has always seemed beautiful to me. Probably because I'm hopeless or sentimental or whatever .
God I hope no one ever reads this. That would be humiliating. But anyways I'm going to be late for American History if I don't get my butt moving.
-Celeste