defnotmeyo
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You’re right. It’s not a big deal for GA or DD to...
I think there is a very real disconnect right now where it’s very easy to shit on DD. And those who actually do still like the guy are quick to defend him. So… ah, it’s hard to explain. I’ll be honest I’m more a DD fan than a GA fan just on sphere of work alone. And so, to me, and I’m trying to convey this without offending people, it’s like open season on him lately. And so, even I can get a little defensive, and I tend to be neutral.
I can understand that. I do feel like David’s taken some shit lately, and I think some of it’s deserved and some of it isn’t. I don’t like it when the fandom piles on him either (or on Gillian).
From my perspective, as someone who considers herself to be an equal fan of both of them, I feel like I spend a lot of time and energy trying to be fair to them and not favor one of them undeservedly over the other or apply different standards to them (largely as a result of however many years of turf wars and DD versus GA fandom bullshit, and having been yelled at for stepping out of line). I feel like I’m kind of obsessive and anal about that, sometimes to the point where I think I’m being ridiculous about it. So when I do let my guard down and I say something shirty about one of them without thinking through the implications of it for 20 minutes first, and that person’s defenders leap in to chastise me, it does frustrate me probably more than it should, just because I feel like I work so hard to stay objective about both of them and not be unfair to either one -- and because this has been going on for so LONG and sometimes I feel like I’ve been defending and stanning for these assholes forever and yet the day I slip up and say one negative thing about somebody it’s like I just arrived on the fandom boat this morning and I can’t be trusted.
So I know that’s overly defensive of me, but it’s a little bit of a thing with me so I don’t always react the best to it.
Then, too, sometimes I just want to lovingly roast David because that’s what I do, and sometimes I feel like I goof on him in a sarcastic way that *I* feel it should be plainly obvious is coated in heart eyes, and yet someone takes offense to it and gets all sad and mournful and hurt about how mean I am, and that annoys me too because I feel like I’m being come down on for the way I show my affection for him just because it’s jokey instead of straightforwardly worshipful (like...someone who films him yammering about baseball while he’s in the makeup chair and then turns the camera on herself to show that she is making a face of “this is what I have to put up with with this guy”). Like I go “look at this dingus with his preppy anchor belt” and immediately someone is like I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU CALLED HIM A DINGUS, HE IS A BEAUTIFUL FEMINIST I CAN’T BELIEVE U WOULD BODY SHAME HIM 😭 and I just want to quit the internet. This wasn’t that, but sometimes it feels like it all goes together.
Anyway, I can’t wait to read that guy’s new book and I really do hope he manages to get BFD made into a movie, because I loved it. And BOY, am I feeling Mulder this season, to put it mildly.