#webby's weaver...wamblings

[webby2007]

Dr. Kerry "Hey, it's OUR E.R.!" Weaver and Dr. Baran "Oh 'my department', 'my patients.' All you fucking think about is yourself! Do you hear yourself?!" Al-Hashimi would be great friends I think

[webby2007]

Carter and Kerry's friendship is so important to me and I could probably go season by season and yap about it each time and I will definitely post about them again (especially about like a thing in season 10 that I'm gonna post about when I'm more awake and coherent) but like okay first of all the fact that Carter immediately likes her and thinks she's cool and she tells him to come closer to watch the procedure she's doing :] and second of all in Carter's like switching to emergency medicine arc the fact that Kerry is like without a doubt the most supportive of that decision is so interesting to me because like obviously Carter spends a lot of time in the ER because...that's what the show is called. But he spends most of season 2 and 3 doing surgical stuff on the surgical floors. And Kerry was the only one not there in season 1 so it's just like I dunno she has a faith in him that she does have like good reason to have but other characters have better reason so for her to be like the most supportive is very cool. Like I said I'm not awake or coherent right now but I just have thoughts their dynamic is one of my favorites and I like the kinda seeds that get planted in the early seasons.

[webby2007]

Hiiii :) so it's kinda insane to me that no one talks about Kerry Weaver in All In The Family, like, it makes sense that they mostly talk about Carter and Lucy as they're the victims, and it makes sense people talk about Benton because every Carter storyline is at least a little bit about Benton even after he leaves, and it makes sense they talk about Romano because he's being uncharacteristically hurt by something, but no one talks about Kerry???? And I'm like okay at least one person should. So I'm doing it. Because like first of all she's objectively the meanest choice for who to find the bodies because she just got there and she's on all night and on paper doesn't have a good enough reason to go home early. And then there's also Kerry is not very popular most people do not like her and two of the only people she'd consistently gotten along with at that point are Carter and Lucy so even if she hadn't been the one to find them she'd still be very thrown by it. And she's clearly the person I think handling the situation the worst like Mark is impressively calm (which like kinda thank goodness for that) and yes Benton is freaking out and Romano is getting upset but neither as much as Kerry who's shaking so badly she had issues intubating Lucy and then after her job is done she goes outside and straight up hurls and then she has to pass off the psych patient to Mark and she's just she's not doing good and we know Kerry normally does incredibly well in high stress situations like that it's not common for things to get to her. And then also in a later episode Kerry points out that when she takes a day off things tend to go to shit (it's spefically season 7 episode 5 which is like god less than a year after this) and it's something the audience I know had picked up on but the implications of Kerry noticing it too. Do you think she feels guilty? For not being there, for kicking Carter out at the beginning of the season, for not mentoring Lucy when she had the chance, do you think she's ran through every scenario in her head trying to figure out if anything she did would've stopped it? Anyway yeah just someone needed to talk about her in this episode

[webby2007]

Okay I keep thinking about this and I need to yap so I'm sorry if you don't follow me for ER, but I keep thinking about how people already don't like Kerry Weaver before she even starts working, because she worked with Doug Ross before, and he didn't like her, so when people ask about her he says she sucked (and then when she does start working people are predisposed to assume she's being mean when she's trying to be friendly), but the thing is Peter Benton had also worked with her before and appears to like her, and that says so much more about her than Doug hating her. Benton does not like a lot of people meanwhile if Doug hates someone the reason can range from they murdered his firstborn to they simply told him "no" one time. But no you got the combo of Benton being black and having a very typical surgeon attitude so no one listens to him. And then it doesn't help that Kerry is disabled and blunt and just like guys c'mon :[ be nice :[ stop being bigots.

[webby2007]

Okay I'm more awake I'm yapping about this now. So there's this scene in the beginning of the finale of season 10 where Carter is working his first shift since Kem had the stillborn and Kerry has been in a custody battle since Sandy died and she has court that day and she's like dissociating at the admit desk when Carter comes down and she just kinda sits there for a moment before going over to him and quietly asking if he's alright and he says yeah and then asks her about Henry and she says she hasn't seen him all week and it helps to keep busy and then she leaves and like that's it. That's the whole thing. But it makes me lose my mind and it's one of my favorite scenes because it says a lot about them and their friendship. Like they're both at their lowest and neither are in the mental state to be emotional support to another person but they both still make an effort to check in with each other and neither calls the other out on the fact that they're both clearly lying about being okay and it shows like a lot of care and a lot of understanding. Also slightly tangential but comparing it to an episode prior where Kerry shows Carter the pictures of Henry and he mentions how he has a whole personality already and she tells him they all do and he'll see and they're both like glowing and just ugh. They both truly went from their highest to their lowest within the span of like five episodes and it wrecks me

[webby2007]

ER does such a funky little balance of like letting Kerry do well professionally at the cost of doing poorly personally and vice versa and like the most obvious example is her doing really well in season 13 despite getting horribly demoted but I really like comparing season 5 and season 6 as well. Because like in season 5 she's like gotten rejected for the chief job for the reason of just like "fuck you" I guess??? (I actually rewatched that arc recently and the reason Anspaugh gave was the committee wanted someone who could bring in more money through research which is insane because Kerry is constantly doing studies but WHATEVER not relevant right now) but she's also like getting along pretty well with like a lot of people actually and she's having the roommate arc with Carter. Meanwhile in season 6 she finally gets promoted but... her and Mark are fighting because of it and most people are pissed at her and there's the thing with Gabe and Jeanie quits and there's the thing with Carter and Lucy (which is going to get its own post trust) and she gets suspended and she blames herself for missing Carter's addiction and it's just a lot. And it's not like a strict rule there are exceptions but it's an interesting trend that follows her and I wonder if she's noticed it herself and gotten kinda frustrated.

[webby2007]

It's really interesting to me the way they have Kerry occasionally talk to people after they've been the patient (like Mark after he got beat up and Morgenstern after the heart attack), because like truly no one there is normal about being the patient, doctors make the worst patients and all that, but Kerry has such a fun unique perspective on it, because it doesn't do that thing with a lot of the other characters where they get sent spiralling because they process for the first time that they're y'know like everybody else because Kerry is aware. Kerry is consistently reminded that none of them are particularly different from any patient who walks through the doors, but then also she's not broken, she's a fully capable human being who's spent most of her life being underestimated, so being seen as a patient (or god forbid actually being one) is kinda her worst nightmare and makes her feel like she's proving people right, so in some ways she deals with it better than most but then in other ways she deals with it way worse, and goddddd I need to put her in a box and observe her...

[webby2007]

I think my little Kerry Weaver hot take slash headcanon with very little proof is that I don't think she actually wanted the chief of staff job at any point which is not to say I think she didn't enjoy it or that there's any universe in which she'd turn it down but I don't think it was part of like the plan. I think Kerry's goal was to be chief of the ER and just kinda stay there she's like very clearly attached to that ER and she goes "My E.R." far more than "My hospital" when she's chief of staff and she continues to do a shift down there every so often including some night shifts and I just don't think becoming chief of staff was a thought that genuinely crossed her mind until season 9 when everyone was accusing her of trying to steal Romano's job (which is like definitely not what she was doing she was just genuinely trying to help him out) and just like yeah I dunno like I said there's not a lot of evidence for this but it's my headcanon (although I do adore chief of staff era Kerry)