#weight t

[alounuitte]

ik my feelings on this have nuance and can be incredibly conflicting and complicated and ive definitely posted about that before but: I love my fat body and I love being fat. except for the part where my clothes stopped fitting

[birdghost]

Laughing at the articles saying "actually we arent gaining weight in lockdown according to internet connected scale company"

BRUH your sample is people who own wifi scales that is not the general population lmao

[pansypipedream]

Weight + bad body image talk tw ///

I'm having such a bad body time, All The Time. Its all I can think about, how much I hate myself (a mixture of hips dysphoria and general stomach pudge), and how stuck I am. I don't know how to progress from here. I'm so so exhausted and I'm getting less and less able to cope in everyday situations (I spend a lot of time wanting to scream).

Mostly this is a rant bc I feel like I'm clogging up my twitter, but also if anyone has any advice pls pls share

[sufjansufjan]

me: [eats well for less than a week] 

me: [starts outfit planning for when im Skinny(TM)]

[birdghost]

check out my METRICS 💪 my otf transformation challenge starts today!

[pansypipedream]

#weight talk

I looked at gyms and fitness classes online and now I'm freaking out, the idea of going to one is making me so anxious

But I'm so scared of gaining weight since I'm sitting down so much more at my new job (and I want to lose weight Anyway)

But also. Anxiety

[pumkinpaws-archive-moved]

stuff that has improved since my last birthday: lost weight better diet less belly pain clearer face dont shave my face anymore almost no agitation i can drive automatic and stick shift i have a car i survived 2 semesters of college and got some good grades. and some not so good grades. im less suicidal and less miserable. voice is changing. slowly. better fashion sense 1 million times more independent. made a secret checking and savings account to hoard money away in clover! figured out i hate people better self esteem and image happier. still not happy, but less miserable im in the limbo zone between Surviving and Recovering.. sort of. still on the surviving end though. the "ugly" has faded a lot. i have clothes that actually fit me now i wear less makeup and do it better flashbacks are tolerable or nonexsistant in the process of getting into emdr in the process of scheduling surgery on my wrist Muscles I grew an inch learned a lot about myself less breakdowns and helplessness cooking has improved a lot lived on my own for 9 months (dorm, apartment) i drive myself places, make my own appointments, more self reliant in general and more responsible. a lot of growing internally more able to have fun now

[alounuitte]

my doctor did just say the other day “well you are at higher risk (for Covid complications) because you’re ob*se” and i almost laughed in her face

(numbers under cut)

I’m 5’7” and 200lbs btw I am not even that fat