wrong blog but inspired by ur randy dowager post. how exactly does cassandra feel about sidony trying to do Research™ by reading the romance novels cass likes????
I will never let go of the misunderstanding they have born of this lmao It delights me. When Sidony assumed that Cassandra was into everything in her books, so she started bringing up xyz kinks. And, Cassandra went along even though it wasn't her kink because she now assumed it was Sidony's kink. Until they finally had a talk about it and were like "oh so neither of us were really into that" lmao
For the sake of clarity, they weren't making themselves do things that were hard no's and neither was pressuring the other into anything. It was both of them going "huh didn't know she was into that" and engaging in it because it wasn't a hard no for them so if the other was really into it they were willing to play in that space. Only to find out neither was actually that into it; they'd just hit a communication error.
All that aside, Cassandra is kneejerk embarrassed because she's accustomed to hiding this part of herself. She's shy about her love of romances, let alone smut. And, she has illustrated smut, too. She's been conditioned to expect judgment for this, and is therefore mortified when Sidony picks up those books herself. What if Sidony judges her for it? What if she finds Cassandra immoral for liking these things? What if she's so put off she breaks up with Cassandra?
Which of course does not happen. Cassandra is so relieved. And, it's honestly so freeing, so lightening, to have someone so important to her see a part of herself she's felt she's had to hide — and to have her not only see it but actively seek it out — and be completely accepting. Enthusiastically so.
It's also hot quite frankly. Which does ring louder in her head than the relief a lot of the time lmao Knowing Sidony desires her is in itself hot. Then knowing that Sidony desires to make her feel good is extra hot. (Knowing her partner wants her to make them feel good is attractive enough, but when her partner is enthusiastic about returning the favor — damn I'm trying not to make this post explicit but it flips a specific switch lmao) AND ON TOP OF THAT? Sidony, who Cassandra knows well is the scholarly type, is doing dedicated research about it? Like in a lot of ways, that above all shows just how invested Sidony is and how great her desire is, and it does make Cassandra's brain shut off.












