so I went out with this guy I know through the work I do, and I really like him but... I am just not that attracted to him.... Let me just tell you how much cowboy hats are deceiving. Like men love to say that women who wear lots of makeup are lying, but guys who wear cowboy hats and ball caps are lying too damnit. it’s not like he’s bald or anything, he just isn’t what I thought.
I knew he was shorter than me, that was obvious, and I could definitely tell that he was a little chubby but I thought he was like 28 which would only be about 4 years older than me. Turns out he’s 36. That’s ELEVEN WHOLE YEARS OLDER THAN ME. I have never even dreamed about being with someone that much older than me... but here I am. I mean he’s already been married and divorced and all of that. That isn’t a deal breaker though, it’s just kind of crazy to me since I can’t even imagine getting married yet.
Don’t get me wrong though, I am incredibly attracted to who he is as a person and the work that he does is super interesting/amazing/badass. I’m just having a hard time getting past a few other things...
At least if he were a good kisser and confident in the bedroom like he made himself out to be through texting, then maybe I could look past those superficial things. But he just isn’t and I’m finding it soooo hard to ignore that. Cuz I love talking to him and he makes me feel so comfortable and special. But damnit I need someone who can take charge and be confident in bed so I can be a lazy bitch haha. (I really try to be a giver though, promise. Just want a man in charge is all.) I don’t wanna have to teach a grown ass man how to kiss or be more confident in the bedroom. That just seems wrong to me.
Anywho, really hope no one reads this. If you are one of the maybe single digit people who has read this, then I am sorry you decided to waste your time on my blog post. Good night.