#whatbirdareyou

[toniarouniverse]

[ionproton]

These are example tweets from me

Let me cut to the chase. I have so much everyday that I want to give to the world. But, I alone can not do it. What I can do is live my life. I like to write and inspire. I like to teach. I am thinking about my students saying to me "Mr. B, why do you teach here?" That was always strange. I taught at public urban schools because that was where I was needed. But, that wasn't what my students were telling me. They saw greatness in me. When I didn't see it in myself, they saw it in me.  I guess they held me to a standard that I held them to.  I always believed in you.  And when you didn’t believe in you.  I believed in you.

So where am I at in life? I am doing every single thing to not fall down. There are things I must learn now. I am not going to just be a teacher.  I am also a student.  I’ll always be a student. 

I am a leader. Not everyone is going to like that. People, even your friends, don't like to see success. It makes them realize that maybe they aren't being true to themselves.  They will make sure to focus on all of your problems, as if you are oblivious to them.  But, if your output is high quality...then affirmation may be justified by usable product. 

Oh yeah.  You know you own nothing right?  There are people who wait to suck anything out of you and turn it into something you’ll consume.  They will thank you for the free ideas and turn them right back at you and laugh in your face at how rich you made them.  Plagiarism of the highest form.  But don’t worry.  True students know the value of original work.  Hints of research will surface but it is ultimately your authenticity that speaks of the times.  That fact that you know this and trust in it is exactly why you learn how to battle your anxiety.  You know the truth.  The truth hurts.  As such you can break the terms and walk away or realize what you signed up for when you took the class. 

Remember what I said on the first day of class?  I won’t give up on you, if you promise not to give up on you.  I won’t give up on you, even if you give up on you.

 Stop it.  Stop worrying about them.  Love yourself and do what it is that exploits your gifts and also lets you get paid.  Understand that your artistic endeavors won’t pay the bills until they do.  So when you go to work for someone else, you aren’t showing up and doing a shitty job.  You are showing up and doing the best job you can to make a stand for the type of character you are.  So make sure to say thank you when someone takes your plate.  Or sorry when you see a custodian bend over to pick up your trash.  If you had any manners you would have put your trash in the trash on your own.  Don’t be such a slob.

If you find a way to let your art do something, great.  If not, oh well, remember the second something feels like a job may be the second that it turns against you.  Understand the power of love.  It can ultimately put you in hell.

When you think of me...I hope this is what I stand for:

I am not perfect. I am riddled with problems and there is a war inside of me. But life blessed me with an opportunity to become a leader. Life gives everyone this offer. For a long time I knew it was in me.  I just didn’t want the responsibility that it comes with.  Some days you may be jealous of the person who can go to a 9-5.  They may bitch and moan.  Don’t we all?  But know that the choice they made is one that is limited in the capacity of good that they can do.  Remember: Newton’s Third Law.  If you want to do good, then bad must balance it out.  I recommend finding a way that the bad does no harm to other’s.  This may require you to keep it to yourself.  We are slaves to the secrets we tell.  Especially when “friends” leverage it to acquire selfish needs.

Beware. This is scary. When you are a leader, everyone will want your throat. It's jealousy. I will fight for what I believe for the rest of my life. It's becoming a literary masterpiece written by me and my team. And the enemies team. And there are so many outcomes that can come of it.  But relationships built on trust are the strongest and most meaningful things you need to survive.  Broken trust has two outcomes.  It can forever sever ties.  If that, it dies.  Or it can require time.  If so, use the time given to you to become the character that you truly are so when the convergence occurs again, you have the evidence to show you are ready to be the man.  

Fuck.  The things that I will do to prove to a woman that I am the best version...shit...damn developers are coming up with another patch after they go to the gym...