#whatever nic

[invalidgay]

I’m literally just out here trying to subtly use tumblr during a lecture and instead I’ve got astronauts in space DMing me saying I’m supposed to be getting my education, not dicking around

[invalidgay]

just logged into poptropica (on the account i made literally ten years ago) and i apparently finished 24 islands... now it is time to finish the other 21

[invalidgay]

About to go into an exam for a class I’m gonna fail wtf is the point

[invalidgay]

me, banging my hand on my desk as i look at people’s facebook posts: ARE YOU FUCKED?

[invalidgay]

the only scary things this halloween are my uni grades

[invalidgay]

I should have known that my ability to pull away when I get upset or frustrated is what would fuck me over

Fuck us over

I always do it thinking it's the right thing, but...

I think I really fucked up this time.

I apologized last night

Deep into the darkness where the light couldn't see my flaws

My mistakes melted into the street

As I said I'm sorry

Thank you for caring

I got no response

Received no hint of the everpresent good morning text

Or text on the work break

I really did it this time

He's done

[invalidgay]

im so giddy like wtf im thinking about seeing pres this weekend and i can just see myself smiling against his lips and him pulling away and asking me “ what?” as i laugh a little because im such a goof

[invalidgay]

And this is why it won't go anywhere, why it shouldn't go anywhere. He doesn't understand. I try explain and he doesn't care to listen.

You can leave the class but you can't take the money with you.

I swear I'm trying my best.