#whatrambles rants

[whatrambles]

And suddenly I am reminded as too why I don't like interacting with actual human beings at all..... Stupid anxiety.....

Oh dear lord I might have a panic attack....

This isn't going to end well...

[whatrambles]

This is just a rant about my triggers so feel free to not read this!

I hate my triggers because they trigger me at the randomest of times. I mean what the hell?! I will literally start crying if I see a drawing of a couple cuddling. And that is only like 48% of the time?! Literally any fluff or any show of affection sets me off. And it's not even reliable! I could see a post and be fine but if I see it again later in it triggers me.... It just make any sense and is very unconvenient. Why does sad and angsty things not do anything but the time someone shows a drop of affection, care or love, that just starts a whole shit show. What does this say about me and my situation, who knows? Anyway this was a just a little rant because this annoys me very much. :)

[whatrambles]

What the hell. Apparently I have to get my clothes from the dryer even if all of them are in there and I have nothing but a towel. You want me to walk all the way downstairs where its freezing cold to get my clothes when you could get me some instead? Am I being a spoilt brat? I just don't know what to feel anymore. I don't want to feel anymore. I'm just so done. I want to be loved. Is that too much to ask for? I guess so.