@takethewatch replied to your post:[[MOR] So, I’m a fat, lazy, selfish fuck who...
*hugs* I’m so sorry they said that. That’s a horrible thing to say about anybody, and I know it’s not true in the least. You work so hard and have so much on your plate, and you manage to get it all done in spite of some very real and challenging health problems and I really admire you for it. I hope you can manage to shake that off and hold onto the good things people have said about you instead, and not let that person ruin your saturday. <3
@whenderful replied to your post:[[MOR] So, I’m a fat, lazy, selfish fuck who...
:( I’m sorry that’s an awful thing to hear. Esp bc I know u work your butt off! Try to keep your head up and just get thru the day.. Sending you hugs!
*hugs* Thank you, both. I just feel like no matter how hard I work and no matter how much I do, I always let someone down. I’m always a disappointment to someone. And when I try to do something to make ANYTHING easier for myself, then I’m selfish and lazy and what’s the point I’m not going to take advantage of it anyway. Like... I’m 38 fucking years old. GOT OFF MY FUCKING BACK AND JUST LET ME LIVE MY LIFE.
I really, really wish I had my own place right now. I mean, I’d mostly resigned myself to living in my uncle’s house and living in my his and my parents’ back pockets for the foreseeable future, but this is getting ridiculous. I lost THE WHOLE FUCKING MORNING to trying to get my head out of that sinkhole. Over something SO. FUCKING. STUPID. Which would never have been an issue if I were living alone. I haven’t felt so keenly how badly I don’t want to be where I am right now in YEARS. But I have no money, so I can’t afford to move. So, I’m stuck where I am, getting this negative shit reinforced over and over and over and NONE of them would be getting away with it if I didn’t live here.
FUCK.
