Where’s My Future Girlfriend? <3
I’m tired of falling for girls who I know won’t accept my baggage. I’m tired of dealing with the numerous “talking stages.” I know it takes time to find your person, like that I understand, but I’ve been out & proud since I was 16 years old, a sophomore in high school. I came out after both of my grandfathers passed away, a month apart of each other, I wasn’t fully functioning back then, but I knew that in order to fully grieve & move on, this is what I had to do, so I took the chance and I came out at 16. My mothers side adored me and loved me continuously, they still do to this day, but my fathers side talks shit about me straight to my face. I have learned that the constant down talking and disapproval isn’t just of me, but it’s because they don’t like the fact that I’m attracted to girls, well, let me be and let me be happy.
Last year, around August I decided to cut my hair short and I have been in love with the way it looks ever since! I’ve changed hair styles a few times, but I haven’t truly felt this confident within myself in awhile. I hope to one day find my person and by that I mean the person who truly makes me happy at my darkest deepest moments. I want to be with someone for the right reasons, not for the wrong ones. Once I do, ultimately find my forever happiness, I hope to cherish them with love, acceptance, and just let them know and be aware that they can be themselves when they’re around me.
I hope to take you to some of my favorite places which include: the drive in movies, the beach, Disneyland, the park, etc. I hope to genuinely find happiness when we’re together, but some things you should be aware of are: I overthink constantly. I constantly think the worst out of every situation, overthinking is in my nature, I suffer from anxiety, depression and PTSD. Will you be there for me when everything comes crashing down during a panic attack? I hope so. I hope that anything we’ve struggled with we can overcome. Ultimately, I want the best for both of us.
I’m just hoping to find my happiness... I know you’re out there.<3 (: