#whingefest

[bloghaven]

Hey Folks! Good (or not so good morning), it’s all in the form. Just a bit of fun from me. Tell us what really grinds your gears, boils your piss etc…

[endometriosissucks]

My abdo is so sore

I can’t think straight

I’m extremely late for work but have let them know

Going to have to take more unpaid hours but right now that is the only way

Plus I’ve been over doing it on the foot front and developed some bad compensating habits that are affecting my calves, knees and hips

I feel so gross

Even my mouth tastes gross

My bf has the day off as he’s working all weekend so I’m whinging here so as not to put a big funk on his day!!!

[mochasandlove]

Its almost 11 and we havent even finished Act 2. I likely wont get home til after midnight. We still need to coordinate bows and Im pretty sure my bus home isnt even running anymore. I am getting sick. I have been having like 5-6 hours of sleep a night the past five or so nights. I have been eating terribly and honestly I am like pretty much delirious with lack of sleep at the moment tbh. Tomorrow I have no commitments until 1 and I cant even explain how excited I am to actually get some sleep.

[endometriosissucks]

unsolicted advice

friend: how are you

me: devil here so keeping it minimal but i'm good

friend: *sends educational meme about how bananas are really good for a lot of medical complaints*

[endometriosissucks]

shitting on my dreams

been feeling a bit crazy lately so i have tried to talk more to my friends. let them know what i am doing in my life.  the result of this is that i am very angry at almost all of them now.

such comments as:

"maybe you should talk to my ex wife about making things more quickly (for your shop)"

yeah i'll talk to someone who makes the same product over and over again about designing for my one off/limited edition shop.

i mean you do not really know what i do so why not make some assumptions about    what  i   must    be      doing       wrong       first off eh??  i mean i didn;t even say speed of production was an issue?????

yeah i'll talk to a healthy person who doesn't lose a week because of searing pain and lack of the ability to concentrate in every four (at least).

"why do you always say you want to be something else, just accept what you are" when i said that i wished i could be a cyborg cause of something i saw on tv (ffs it is one of my 'things to say' i say it a lot e.g. when i first saw madara uchiha on the battlefield in naruto i wanted to be him too...

Now both of these people know i am a bit down and need some encouragement.  Encouragement like maybe saying something to remind me of something good, something i do do well already but nah, why not just shit on my dreams instead.

There are more and I'm sorry but when they next invade my brain and make me want to cry or shout of punch something or throw something out of a window i WILL wwrite them here because that is part of the purpose of this blog, to vent.

[penguinssonamor]

My girlfriend needs to come home so we can cuddle and make out. My tummy is crampy and I'm needy.

[allinom]

things I've realised lately:

I am pretty much an adult, and it sucks. I attend school full time, doing 11 units. I work two jobs, one whenever there are performances (not often) and the other is supposed to be regular except they haven't rostered me on in three weeks. I usually make/buy my own food, my own clothes and pay for myself in most places. I use public transport whenever possible, sometimes even at night, or get lifts with others. I deal with issues from school, friends and all that drama, such as the fact that more than 10 people I know are depressed and around 5-6 people I have met in my highschool life (most of whom I was/am close to) have attempted suicide, (not that I am placing any blame or trying to make anyone feel guilty, it's just stressful) whilst also dealing with family issues & personal issues due to family issues. So all in all, I am a big ball of anxiety and stress, and I want to be able to be a teenager some more. That is why I am eagerly awaiting the holidays, when I can go crazy and forget about some of my piling responsibilities. I think people forget that I'm only seventeen and that I've got a lot of personal shit to deal with.