#whiskeynation

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whiskeynation said: Die

:'(

[qualsiasii]

For Aranza

I've always felt a deep sense of comfort around you that I can't quite explain. I don't know you as well as I should although I've known you for a long time. I trust you, I probably always will without any concrete basis other than the sincerity I have always found only just beneath your skin. I don't doubt that honesty is a part of you. I'm saying that this is important, that what you feel takes courage to express and that right now I am trying to be as honest and I wish I could settle on my feelings with the same conviction that I imagine tethered to your ribs. It's midnight and I am writing because you asked and I don't know how to reach you at the hospital but I hope you find this when you come out. I'm struggling to put together something here that is worthwhile but I don't know how to wrestle the words from beneath my tongue. I'm trying. I care about you, it's not bullshit and it won't ever be. It's hard to know what to say but I know that whatever is affecting you has settled deep and a few poorly composed sentences on a tuesday night are not enough. I suppose that all you can do is try and I am standing behind that, hoping that you won't stop trying either. I don't know how tired you may be, I don't really know anything but I'm asking that you keep trying. I'm being selfish here. I would just really enjoy seeing you quietly slip into homeroom late, always with your coffee and just the smallest hint of a smile on your face to make me feel like it can be a good day. I miss you, I really do. I don't know if this is what needs to be said or what it counts for but I wanted to say something.