Freedom from Self-Hate Challenge: July 12th
Describe what you think the “perfect” you should be. Now describe the real you + say something about why life is just as good as you are.
The perfect me would be taller. Slimmer. More toned, and also have wackily-coloured hair. She would be more active. She would be able to run a marathon, and perform amazing synchro routines. She wouldn't hate the two rounds she has to do every PE lesson. Gets less sweaty and smelly.
The perfect me would be more sensitive. Less harsh. Better with words. Not so impulsive. Wise, always speaking with kindness. Less judgemental. More loving towards her family and sisters. Less of a lazy bum who doesn't do anything around the house. More disciplined, less inclined towards procrastination.
The real me is chubby, with maybe a little left of the muscle I used to have. She has black hair that sometimes falls in pretty waves. She sometimes stinks but that's a reminder to go shower. She's slowly working towards fitness.
The real me is honest. So honest, there is no filter between her thoughts and her words. This may be a bad thing, but one can be assured that she won't lie to you unless it's about something trivial (like whether she's the one who finished and didn't replace the toilet paper roll). She won't butter you up, or get close to you for reasons other than wanting to be your friend. The real me is sincere. The real me is less judgemental than some of the company she keeps, but still working towards zero judgement.
The real me is a horrible procrastinator. She spends probably 40% of her homework time on tumblr, and the rest on social media/god knows what. The real me is impulsive, but this might be not so bad, because if not now, then when? If not me, then who? The real me gets experience from the mistakes she makes. She keeps in mind what she's done, and tries to apply this new knowledge to different situations. It doesn't always work, but she keeps trying.
The real me is not perfect. In fact, far from it. But I picture a world where I am the perfectly described person, and I realise there is no room for development, no room for growth. There will be no humility in me (I have humility problems). The perfect me would not be human, and frankly, if I were that perfect me, I'd probably find more things wrong with myself.
Now that I've listed out all these things, it's time to get working towards self improvement. I'm really thankful for this particular challenge, because it really gave me a new perspective in a sense. Thank you, whit---gets---fit, for starting this. I hope to be able to finish it.